Think I'm nearly cured, ask me anything.

Started rebooting/NoFap around the end of February, had multiple mini relapses early on and several more serious relapses half way through (never O'd once though apart from wet dreams). A bit of background ; Started "masturbating" from an early age, then started having sex from age 17-19. Had my first orgasm from masturbation at age 19 and began my descent into porn addiction from that point on. Started off with masturbating to thoughts of my ex gf, then more sick fantasies then full blown pornography. It became a serious addiction where I couldn't stop thinking about it. I'd be sitting there trying to enjoy a hobby or watch TV and my mind would constantly wonder to porn. Eventually my fetishes got more extreme and I myself became more depraved. I stopped caring after a while and started living like a complete slob shut away in my bed room 24/7. Addicted to weed and video games and eventually had an alcohol problem. I'd fap every day and edge for hours. I finally made the choice to quit porn when I realised how serious my problem was 6 years later and I met a girl online and made the big choice to change my life.

5-6 months later I'm no longer addicted to weed, rarely ever drink (if I do its lightly) and not socially isolated and shut in. I went from 118kgs in weight to 78kgs at 6'2.

I could write a lot more but I'll just leave it at that I was in the darkest of holes and truly was addicted. I sincerely believed I'd never get past this and now here I am.
I know the pain of doubt and fear when you're just starting a reboot, so to all the new people and people still struggling, feel free to ask me questions.

 

Tough one, because I felt very hopeless for at least 70-80% of the reboot. I felt most helpless when I went into flatline and depression in the first few months and lost my morning erections. I had a lot of paranoia and even ended up thinking I had physically damaged myself or suffered from venous leak. Nope, turns out it was all PIED, even my issues with maintaining an erection whilst standing up are almost completely cured (I did have a tight pelvic floor though and worked on that). I did get brain fog but not as badly as I suffered from paranoia, depression and serious suicidal thoughts. I was making concrete plans to end my life at one stage.

Thank you.

Never had urges through out most of my reboot. My relapses were motivated by 'dick fear' and doing 'checks'. Only recently I had a relapse (orgasm'd) because I genuinely lost control. I know I must be cured because I could get hard only 10-15 minutes later and I've been getting erections all day just from thoughts alone or looking at a picture of my (ldr)gf.

My advice though to people dealing with urges is that you immediately distract yourself and go do something else and if you're still struggling take pause, inhale deeply and remind yourself why you're doing this. 5-10 minutes of pleasure isn't worth a life time of being lonely and missing out on real sexual relationships. And if having a partner or having sex doesn't motivate you, recall the fact that PIED can mess with your mental health in other ways. I was angry, paranoid and depressed for years but months into my reboot my whole perspective on life completely changed.

Yes I've definitely noticed this. Maybe it's because I've lost lots of weight or because I'm projecting more confidence (making face to face/eye contact is a hell of a lot easier for me now but still difficult because I have an ASD). But I really believe I'm more attractive now than I was before and noticed all my interactions with women are much more positive.

Thank you. I started seriously focusing on diet change and weight loss around mid to late March. I did nothing special at all honestly. Just using my exercise bike 30-60 minutes a day and reading the labels on the back of food packaging. I avoid anything high in cards and sugar. I know avoiding carbs can be hard but I try my best to limit it as much as possible.

 

No urges for the first quarter or half of my reboot. I suffered a penis injury (im fine now thank god) just before I started rebooting so I was completely put off masturbation and porn. Urges only showed up briefly now and then in the last few months and admittedly, 2 nights ago became very powerful. Indeed I already was extremely depressed, my life style was very accommodating to depression. It has been a huge effort and difficult journey but I' finally free and have made it. After many years of severe depression and suicidal tendencies I'm finally seeing my life change and morph before my very own eyes. I'm doing things I never imagined myself doing. You could ask anyone who knows me and they'd confirm I've changed into a different person in these last 6 months. I don't believe in woo stuff like this but in the first week of my reboot I had a very powerful dream about falling into a dark hole/abyss and I woke with my hands in the air with a great sense of fear. Then I had another dream where I was surrounded by fire, I take the blackness as a feeling in my subconscious that I thought I was lost forever and I take the fire dream as an omen that a great change was coming, and it did.

I dont know what your personal situation is but I can say with complete sincerity that nofap has changed my life.

Just read other peoples success stories, think about what you want out of life. My prime motivator this whole time was meeting the girl of my dreams and wanting to be at my best for her and to have a future for myself. One masturbation session isn't worth a life time of fulfilment and happiness. I don't know if you did already, but read my original post, I went from being rock bottom to a full transformation. You can do it too if I can.

Yes. I don't know if I can thank nofap for that or my massive weight loss. Probably both. Nofap has changed my perspective on life and how I feel and interact with other people and how I view myself. I've definitely noticed a lot of girls checking me out, even in front of their boyfriends lol. Aside from extra female attention, I've noticed people tend to treat me better in general.