Terrified about PE problems..

If you have anything, anything at all that could be helpful on the whole topic of rebooting and PE then please consider giving this a read and helping a fellow fapstronaut out, this is my first ever post on the forums and I'm getting really desperate for an assuring word and some advice. Thank you.

Backstory:
I've been a porn user since I was 12, I'm now 20, doing standard stuff that'll fuck you up really, masturbating and orgasming extremely quickly so as not to be caught, porn categories got more and more extreme etc etc. Developed a pretty strong "money shot" mentality where I'd flick through multiple videos until I saw the perfect scene to orgasm to. I got a girlfriend and lost my virginity age 18 and never had any problems with the length of sex at first, however, I continued to PMO throughout our relationship and near the end I was having problems where I'd only last around a minute the first time we'd have sex, and then would be fine if we did it again afterwards.

We broke up and I went on a hardmode NoFap streak, full PMO, for 9 months until I slept with her again in July just gone, I lasted around 20 seconds in bed... She knew I was on the streak so I could somewhat brush off the crushing embarrassment and just told myself I was off my game and next time would be different.

The next few weekends she stayed over both nights every time and I think the longest I lasted was probably 1 minute... As much as I didn't let her see this absolutely mortified my confidence as I thought that after the 9 months on hardmode that I'd definitely see some results but no, just PE problems.

Since then due to the embarrassment of it all I've been relapsing around twice a week (P and M). I don't know what to do though anymore and I'm terrified of carrying this problem forwards to other girls as my ex is the only person I've ever slept with.

I've tried to stick to a plan of kegal exercises 4 times a day but that fell by the wayside after about a week.

I will be on hardmode for the foreseeable as I don't pick up girls typically but if the opportunity arises then I would like a relationship, I just don't want this problem to be a part of it!

Any help or advice about the reboot/tips on dealing with PE whilst on NoFap would be really really appreciated. Thank you in advance guys.

 

Do you think that'd be what's causing the PE? If so any tips to overcome it?

 

Feels almost unfair doesn't it, like we didn't know the damage we were doing, thanks for the support man and here's hoping things sort themselves out for you too!

 

Thanks for the suggestions! I'll give meditation daily a try!