My story

My name is David and I have been watching porn for about 7 or 8 years now. I never really thought I had a problem until now. I started when I was 14 just out of curiosity because I was young and going through puberty. It wasn’t often. Maybe once a month if that. It never really got out of hand until I was close to graduating from high school. I was always afraid to talk to girls because I was afraid of rejection or saying the wrong thing and looking dumb. I was also kind of shy so I didn’t talk much unless I had to anyways. I was apart of the baseball team and one of the main topics of conversations was always about girls and who was dating who or who had sex with who and I felt left out because I had never had a girlfriend before and hardly any interactions with girls for that matter. I never fully got comfortable with girls and instead of trying to fix the problem I began turning to porn more and more because I didn’t have to worry about feeling uncomfortable or getting rejected. It felt good and like there was nothing wrong. I’m now 22 years old and I’m still having the same problem except now it’s not once a month it’s like 3-5 times a week. I feel terrible after I watch it and I think about how bad I feel for watching it all the way up until I watch it again. I’m just ready to stop watching porn and having self pleasure because it’s unhealthy for me socially and mentally.