Fail again, fail better...

Hello Everyone,
Glad to be here. I'd like to introduce myself...

I'm a 41 year old divorced guy living in Sweden.
I have decided to change my life and quit porn. My goal is to find a girl and get a really good sex life. But dating with ED is not so fun. I met a girl and it did not work out due to this. Not a nice experience. She was not so understanding when I did try to explain.

Been using porn for about 20 years give or take, or since internet got overloaded, and decided to quit july this summer. I now realize quitting is not so easy. Having relapsed a few times I decided to try this site to connect with others who understand what im facing. I have come clean about my problem to a close friend as well but Im not sure he fully understands..

I have already seen alot progress in my recovery though, even after 2-3weeks. Dating is not an issue. I'm a charming goodlooking guy with decent job and healthy lifestyle. The girls really like me. But anxiety ED is also a thing I worry about, which hold me back from going any further with the girls. (not very sexperienced either since I spent all my adult XXX life on the computer LOL).

So Im counting days now and try to stay above the surface.
Fail better!

thanks for reading this far/
and oh.. Im a music producer

 

@LiquidShoes
Thank you!
Background to music production: I have always loved listened played music since i was a child. Dad played organ in church. Bass is my main instrument, but played drums piano and guitar aswell . and singing. The voice is a central part of developing your ear, and listening is SO important. I had a 4ch tape recorder and started to play around with it. to be honest i think producing began as a control behaviour. wanting to be the one deciding what the intruments should play and sound like. With computers introduced to amateur musicians market i was sold. Its not my daily work, but more like a sidebusiness. RnB, jazz Wetcoast lounge, EDM and such. I compose record and release music of my own.
What music are U into?

I will now create a journal.

 

Thank you too!!
Im really glad to be here. and to share with others what im going through. I believe connecting to this forum everyday will help me hold the line.
7days challenge: I will do this as soon as I reset. (which hopefully i will not do.) But thanks for the tip. And the guide. a lot of useful tips there.