Back to NoFap after 360 days. Here's what happened!

I came across the word NoFap about 360 days ago. I had realized about my addiction and registered on this website. However, my motivation did not last for long. I couldn't control myself. I stopped coming back to this website. My addiction continued and I watched porn almost every day and masturbated every time I watched porn. This became worse when I couldn't find porn, I started masturbating for pictures girls. I started visualizing things to masturbate. I knew my mind was out of my control, but I could not help myself.
I had started to realize that I was badly addicted to PMO. My motivation did not last for more than 3 days. I had to masturbate every night. Every time I masturbated, acne on my face got worse.
This continued until November 23rd, 2017 when I came across few NoFap videos on YouTube and advantages of NoFap. It was not the advantages that caught my attention, but the how PMO had affected my mind and my thoughts. It had changed the way I think and my personality.
My social anxiety, hesitation, low voice when I was out in public or office meeting were because of my addiction. I cannot make eye contact when I speak to girls or to my boss. I don't have fear in my mind but, I cannot show that in my personality.
Whenever there are girls, I started feeling that they are observing me or they are interested in me. Little did I know, that I was the victim of my addiction.
It was really shocking to me when I realized that, PMO addiction has not only damaged my face but, my mind and my thoughts.

This is when I decided to start my NoFap journey of 90 days. Today (25th November 2017) is my 3rd day without watching porn and masturbating. I have made few changes in my life like Cold shower, intensive exercise, no Instagram.

I'm also updating my journey, changes in me, my struggles during this journey in my small basic blog nofapvegan.blogspot.in . I've seen people talking about various benefits of NoFap, but my motive is to come out of my PMO addiction and regain my control over my life.

 

Thank you for the support.

 

Yes, I'm writing my progress. We'll make it : )