Field reports (dating, approaching women) during reboot, Mazur R

Ashamed to share - no talk to girls yet.
The libido is fine, but I am shy.

There was this tiny red head, and all I could do is comment that I am into her hair color, but aloud to a friend, behind her back.
She heard and turned, but that was it.
She seemed more annoyed, than anything else.

 

Duuuuude, I thank you so much for the second video. I ve read lots of information about dating, game, etc. but this stuff is just soooooo dope

 

I had an interesting dream this night:
I was on a wedding and sat on a table with stranger.
Talked to a guy, who then called the girls on the table closer to us because said I wanted to get to know the people.
As I was talking one of the girls had sat very close to me.
She was a blond cutie, with the flaw of visible mustache hair over her lip. Nicely enough, I felt not too judgmental (my worst flaw due to porn and photkshoped media).

She reached for the pendants on my neck, and I made a fun remark of that.
Later on her hand in a thin blue glove was over mine. I escalated as I put my hand on hers too.
She was clearly into me and I knew it, so I kept talking to people, with stories raising my value.
At a point I had to stop talking because I had hard time chewing a biscuit (dry mouth IRL, that is a dream, remember) so there was this awkward but waiting for me to continue silence. Aaand I woke up.

Moral of the story:
I am rebooting well, becoming not too judgemental,knowing that a girl with a flaw can become a supermodel with a touch of makeup when she feels like it.
I know I can be very interesting to girls, but i need a setup or introduction.
I still have a hard time making cold approach out of the blue.

 

Hehe, thanks. And you are the inspiration *fistbump*

I just installed a few apps for me to motivate:
- pua conversion tracker
- vantter

The idea is to gamify the approach game and keep me motivated via score points.
So let's see. I might hijack your thread and file my field reports here, too.

 

if you don't know how to back off and read the signs it could become dangerous.

 

Field report 9.11.17

FB suggested an event to me. Seemed cool: Quiz night at Rubik bar.
I went there. The event was not that cool. The place tough was great: no too loud music, one can talk effortlessly; free to play table football and billiards; young people.

Didn't do much of a game: standed alone quite some hour or two.
At a point three girls went on the table football and I asked if they needed fourth player. Two games and alone again.
Then 10 min later this same girl asked me to join for billiards.
Went out for smokes.
She was the first to ask my name, then my age. The said that 32 is a good age. I played and guessed her age was 21. Correctly.
We had foreign language in common: German.
Then she said to her friends that there is no going home tonight and asked for my plans. I said i am free to stay late.
We played more pool, had hi5s on cool shots, she got drunk at the end and quit playing.
I was with the car and did not drink.
At 3h I said that i was leaving and she hugged me a few times goodbye.
I am not sure if I am into her, but the experience and her vibe was cool. Should I kino escalate and go all the way with her? Am I too quick to guess nothing long-term will happen between us?

I am sure I liked the place and I will be going there more.

 

Field report 16.11.2017 (very detailed for my personal needs)

Oh my, oh my, the superpowers are real!
Warning: might be triggering for some of the readers.

I went to Rubik bar to give them a transparent of my out of school activity.
There was a big company in the middle if the place.
Once I finished my business with the owner of the bar I took a look around. There were two girls alone in the big company, talking. Both were nice, the one with the black dress and exposed shoulders were prettier. In my mind I remembered the game plan how to win the cuter, talking to the one I am less interested in.
Never did it. I still need to learn how to overcome my approach anxiety.
Hour later:
I know three of the men in the big company, and one of them has a birthday. We talk.
Then he invites me to talk more among the rest of the people.
The birthday man asks me how big is my out-of-school organization.
I say that we are going to Estonia and the cure girl gasps.
Then she asks me of my name and responds with another gasp, her boyfriend has a very similar name. She is so excited that she never gave her name and I never knew it.
Then I joke if she took the ferry to Finland and she enthusiastically tells me a short story.
I mention Germany and that I have taken a ferry to Finland and she is overwhelmed by the coincidences. She had been in Germany too.
Her reactions are like "I can't believe this is happening. Who are you? Where have I seen you before? You look so familiar."
Then we give cheers and she asks why no alcohol. I say that I am with the car and that I am on medications. She cheers me again and thanks me genuinely for my sincerely and openness.
Then a woman comes to say that she is leaving and the girl asks if it is too strange that she is with her mother.
I respond that we are in an eastern country and here family is still highly valued. I say that I have been to the movies with my mother.
She literally jumps on my neck and hugs me passionately. I feel her breasts against me.
Then we talk about KGB and communism museums in Tallinn and about elevators that come on themselves when you open the front door.
I mention a few inventions that we did so that one can do a phone call to the heater at home, and that a small robot can turn the coffee machine for her too. We even have a charger that shuts down after three hours of charge.
She asks me why do I do stuff like that.
I answer with the question why musicians make music and why do painters paint. That is my way to create stuff and it is very rewarding your creation to work and do what needs to be done.
She is blasted. She is impressed by the passion.
She mentions that programmers are always attracted to her. Even in the middle of Spain, on a mountaintop, there was a programmer to come to talk to her.
Here I remind her that she started the conversation with me.
Now she enters an interesting state where she is confused whether she should tell me something.
She is nervous and excited most of the time we speak and I wonder why exactly. Is it only the coincidences.

It turns out she noticed me the moment I entered the bar. And I have sent electricity to the place for her.
Around that point, I get nervous and excited too, because I realize that girl is very much into me, and I like her too!
She asks me if I knew that she had noticed me right away.
I am honest and say no.
Then I wonder if, but eventually, I share a story that two years ago I entered a room to teach a girl and that other girl was immediately into me. I knew she was a year later. So yeah, that has happened before, I had no idea why and how.
The cute girl in the bar asks me if I have sensed the electricity back then. I say no, I am sorry. It is part of me that I am not aware of. Like a fish that is not aware of the water.
She sais yes, I have heard that and I don't understand it.
And here comes drop in the vibe. Her glass is empty and she goes away. Because the mood had dropped, I decide not the chase her but move away too.

A few minutes later she plays pool on the billiards table with a middle age man. I am kind of jealous but never mind. I have an idea what to say and to continue were we stopped if the chance be.
I move to the pool table and watch the play. She is into the game.
A few minutes later our eyes meet and I hold steady gaze and smile welcoming.
Later she looks at me when I pretend not to be watching. Then I catch her look.
The game ends and she comes to me on her own.
I tell her that she was one attractive girl in the bar that wanted to talk to and wasn't able to approach, and I am happy to be talking with her now.
She grabs my hand and pulls me out.
We are in the antree of the bar hugging moving slowly. I wonder if she wants to dance or what. Apparently not.
Over a few minutes of hugging and obvious body language, she raises her chin for the kiss.
We kiss on the lips, and when I proceed to play with tongue she breaks the kiss but stays hugging me. We make out a few long minutes more and we talk hugged. I saw I noticed something is holding her back. And she says she is with her boyfriend.
And I am like oh my, not again. A sexy girl is wildly into me and she is with a man. And I follow the commandment not to break existing couples.
And we keep making out. She shares that she feels me (my boner).
I play with my hands on her body, lost in the moment, but never too much, as there are people leaving and entering the place all the time and we are in the antree.
I play with her hair and pull her back. She kisses my neck and makes me breathe heavily. We are all over into a sexual foreplay and I tell her that at that point people around us would tell us to get a room. And I also tell her that I will not put her into trouble.
She slows down and asks why then am I still there and doing that. I respond that I am enjoying the feelings and living the moment fully.
That sparks some more confirmation for her and she continues.
I cannot explain how she moves around and takes me with her - on the couches in front of the company hugging next to each other, then outside and there is rain beyond the end of the roof. Then back in the antree. And all the time she holds my hand, puts her hands on my body and almost kisses.
At one point we are on the couch and she puts my hand between her thighs. This is my point where I clench my fist and muster all my strength to stop. I believe she enjoyed my struggle.
At another point, we are making out in the antree and she says how is that happening, her little life is set up with a planned future and I appear out of nowhere, driving her crazy.
At another moment we are in the antree, she turns around and I hug her from behind. We have done that a few times already. This time I hold her waist and push her back forward. She bends over and her ass presses fully against my boner. I have to pull her back up and clench my fist again.
At another moment we are in the antree and she moves steps away and looks at me. Asks me how to resist me. I crack up as I can't believe my ears. Then I thank her for the compliment and tell her that the way to resist is to be far away, not as close as now. And that she will be very proud of herself that she resisted at the end. She smiles, I think.
That whole making out thing ends in about an hour. I had no clue of the time, all my attention was there and then, in the moment, being present, feeling with every part of my body the sensations and the warmth of that cute girl that will be gone by the end of the night.
She asks me if it strange that we may never meet again, as we enter the bar.
And it is my turn to put my face in my palms, as she did every time she heard a coincidence from my part.
I tell her that she may or may not forget about me, but if she want something to remind her of me.
And she says enthusiastically yes.
There is this song of Modern Talking "no name, no face, no number" and I am living it right now.
I never knew your name, you were too excited and never shared it. She said really and smiled.

The rest of her initial group pack up and are about to leave.
I feel like she was willing for me to either drive her home or walk her to the taxi.
She even changed her mind from leaving with them to stay with me in the bar, but my gesture with two separating fingers, and some words from the company made her leave.
And she is gone.
And everyone knew I was making out with the hot girl. The girl from the first night on 9th congratulated me and asked what was going to happen next.
So girls definitely notice when a man is with a girl, as the book said.

 

Should have asked more about the boyfriend, where is he now (abroad, away, in the city), why is she so horny, doesn't he satisfy her, what would she feel if the BF was making out with other girl, what would the BF feel if he knew we are making out.
There are options and possibilities I did not explore. I just blocked when I heard about BF, because that is a repeating pattern with girls that are crazy into me.
In my head there was "Don't wish your (Thou shalt not covet) neighbors wife"
and I forgot about
"It is a gentleman's job to fuck a woman".

 

Report 29.11

Was out, tired. This time the music was loud. Very cute girl was my accental partner in table foodball. I did not Game. I was counting on my looks and new leather jacket so that things happen on their own. It does not work like that, one must be proactive.
I also failed in doing "proximation", lurking around her without doing anything. My bad.

There was interesting moment with another girl - she was playing table football, noticed me looking at her, left the bars to fix her hair and received a goal. I made a joke about it. Could do better in similar situation another time.

Mazur, what is happening with you?