I masturbated today after 102 days

Last night, I masturbated without porn for the first time in over 3 months and it felt good. However, I was bored today and I masturbated again. So basically I jacked off twice without porn in a 24 hour period.

This is not my proudest moment. Unlike, last night I haven't felt great at all today. I been feeling super off, I went to the store with my roommate and I felt anxiety for no reason. Maybe, Im tripping but I feel like I fucked up by masturbating last night and setting a negative effect.

I'm going to stay away from masturbating again, not saying that jacking off is the reason why I'm feeling this way but I felt a lack of energy and felt depressed.

Even though I have gone 103 days without watching porn which is the real problem, I no longer felt proud of that number anymore. It's like the weirdest fucking feeling ever.

Anyone else who masturbate without porn feel this way?

 

I think you shouldn’t have done that second one. If you’re a pmo addict, you’re body probably has some rebalancing to do and probably takes more time to recover than normal but it’s not normal right now.

103 days is a little over 90 days and 90 days is kind of an arbitrary number, to me 90 days is not the beginning but it’s no where near the end. But that kinda depends per case. You’ll probably feel back to normal again in a week

 

fuck man, I really appreciate you posting that. 90 is definitely an arbitrary number for sure! I thought I'd be miraculously cured after 90 days, and were talking about a 15 year addiction. Part of me wishes I didn't masturbate period, but lesson learned my man!

 

Yeah, it’s very arbitrary, 90 days is a very good start though!

And you say 15 years? Oh yeah, 90 days is no where near the end for sure, but if you are gonna mo, at least give it a few weeks between each release, I think.

Good luck!!

 

Oh and I read around and they say 90 days is more of making a new habit, but rather In this case the new habit is stopping the old one? Xd

 

thanks man, I appreciate it. Based on my mood, I know what not to do next time! It's a good way to learn

 

Yes, base it on your mood! Expect to lose some energy the second round when doing it that soon, are you willing to mo and to live like that for the next week? Can your mind/body take it?
Good luck! Peace love positivty to you brother!

 

honestly man, I just wish I didn't do it. It's like when you havent smoked cigarettes in a long time, and that first drag feels great initially then the second time you do it, it tastes weird.

 

I'm with you man, porn is fucking cancer for sure there's not 1 good thing I can say about it. For me, I don't need to chase girls, I been with my girlfriend for 2 years and she's extremely supportive and loving during this process. At the end of the day, it's a process and I need to realize I haven't watched porn for 103 days and keep going!

 

NoFap also makes you realize how much your missing out. The longer you go, the more enjoyable life becomes.

 

I'm totally with you man. I was a full blown addict, masturbation and porn has always gone together. The first time I did noFap I masturbated without porn and felt so guilty I reset the counter after day 10. Don't get me wrong I am extremely proud of myself to get to 103 days, however I don't need to masturbate I'm fine having sex as it is. I thought I could do it, but obviously the way I been feeling hasn't been worth it even though it's only been 1 day. The shitty part was, I had to change the counter to "without porn" but hey life goes on!