KILL PORN, KILL MASTURBATION. REBIRTH OF MY SOUL

I'm a 24-year-old male. Porn led me to masturbation and I have been battling both for over 10 years now.

I only found out about the NOFAP yesterday and I've started my journey immediately. Even as I type I feel a weakness in me, I hear my subconscious with screams of a doubt. But if I've learned anything from the hundreds of posts and threads is that I need to be busy. I've decided to get busy outdoors, play video games with friends at their place, run every morning and evening (before and work).

Some time ago I got so depressed and dirty I tried getting drugs that will kill Mr junior temporarily. I did result in drug abuse a few times but I'm way past that now. I currently do not have a girlfriend and I don't know if getting one now will ruin or increase my chances of coming out successfully on this journey.

I need as much help as I can get, and I know I'll find it here cause if we all light up we could scare away the dark.

Day 1 of my journey. Wish me well my friends.

 

Thanks a lot for the message. I wish you also a healthy recovery on your journey.

 

Day 2 completed.

Super psyched. I didnt want to take chances so immediately I woke up rushed to take a cold shower. Dressed up while playing loud annoying music(something I hate). I didn't want to give my mind a chance to feel comfortable. After work went straight to a friends to play some video games and tennis.
I'm trying to keep super busy and never alone. I'm also controlling my eyes, i don't stare for more than a second.
I hope and pray I get to day 5. I decided to set shorter and more attainable goals. Instead of going to be like the 90 or 200day Nofaps I set 2,5,7,12,19....

Any thing else you guys think I should work on??? Wish me well guys.

 

Thanks for your comments. It's really encouraging.

 

Day 7. This is totally unbelievable. I never knew i could go this far on my 1st try. I'm the happiest man alive today. Just last night i woke up in the middle of the night and continued a book i was reading as part of my recovery strategy and i was amazed at my self. I had so much energy and life flowing through my veins. Usually such nights end up with PMO.
The Eyes is actually the lamp of the entire body. Keeping my eyes off half nude girls has really helped.
Whenever i remember that a relapse will mean my refreshing my tracker has helped a lot too. It feels like the few days I've gotten will become an absolute waste of time and people reading this thread will be disappointed.

But i still get urges very frequently but it has become easier fighting it off.
I also opened up to a friend who always checks on me whenever i'm bathing or going no2. We crack jokes about it and he keeps reminding me i can do it and what benefits await me.

And i also still feel depressed whenever I'm fighting an urge. It's a horrible feeling for me.
I wish you all the best of luck on your journey.

 

Thanks buddy. WOW 52 days.
I'll sure like to be like you when i grow up. lol

 

LIVE! Another strong urge while in the office alone. Logged in to report. Can't think of anything else to do. Started playing Jon Bellion 'The Human Condition' album (Very loud.lol). Willing to do anything to get this feeling off me. I'm going to keep writing here until I've got myself back again. Stepped out a couple of times but whenever i get back, the urges are triggered again.

 

Wow! 10Days. I've really improved and thanks to Nofap. Let's keep trying to be successful. I'm just scrambling for things to do.
LIVE! Currently wall punching. LOl, anything to get this off my mind.

 

Seeing my tracker read 10 Days is like a miracle. I can't lose after i've come this far. 10 days, 240 hours, 14,400 minutes, 864,000 seconds PMO free. Wow, I've done a lot. Come so far and can't give up now.
On my fibonacci sequence i have less than 30 hours to get to my next goal of 12 days PMO free.
Can't give in now. I'll be letting a lot of people down. A lot of people read my journal and are encouraged, i won't let them down.

 

Anyone seeing me now will think i'm crazy. Fully dressed with a suit and doing push ups and sit ups under his office table. LMOA.
Will do anything to get my mind off this disgusting PMO. A lot of people are forced into P and watching them is encouraging and promoting them. Imagine if twas my sister that was illegally and unjustly forced into it will i still enjoy it??
If i watch it i'm dirty and disgusting.

 

I'm feeling better now. I think i can get back to work now. Thanks to Nofap. Another day Conquered.
Remeber to take it One Urge At A Time.
I believe I've conquered today and stronger than ever. MOVING ON! lol.