Very close to recovery (probably already PMO urge free)

Wanted to put a post here to maybe send some positivity to those who struggle.

After over 100 days of no MO, it all looks like I am already healed. To clarify, I did not watch P for something around three years when I realized it messes up you brain but I was not aware I need to do a proper reboot. Therefore, I continued MOing (once a day) continuously for about two. I did a 125 days reboot and then after I relapsed (I MOed in the hope it would all magically return) and then continued MOing for several months. Then I decided to do a proper reboot and here I am today.

What I really did differently (as I said many times before in my posts), is that I absolutely turned the fantasy off in my head. No thinking even of real love sex, let alone some hard core banging. In my second reboot, symptoms were very hard (insomnia, lack of energy and such). Even fantasy releases dopamine and such an action releases too much dopamine that prevents you to heal. Funny thing is, my first reboot was considerably harder to go through; this is due to fantasy, which causes increased urges.

Why do I think I am getting healed? Well, my penile sensitivity is coming back while urges are completely controllable (believe it or not). I did not regain full sensitivity and my wiener does not get 100% erect (I am getting like 60-70%) but it is much better then before. The negativity in my head is disappearing and I am enjoying everything more.

So the point of this post is to convey that recovery is not only about how many days of no PMO you get, but also how hard you go in your reboot (i.e. whether you cheat with fantasy and sub-P).

p.s. just a month ago I though it would take me at least 6 months but now full recovery will come faster, for sure

 

This! I think I am free from addiction now but I am going through PAWS. The negativity prior to change from PMO to normal was beyond me. Yes, I need to stay vigilant but I think the worst part is over. Like almost pretty much everyone here who struggled or is still struggling with recovery would not have gone through PMO path if we knew of the consequences beforehand we would not have done it. Now that I know what problems it raises, I will make sure I do not slip again. Life is getting good and I plan to maintain it and later improve it.

 

Honestly, I do not remember if I had any PAWS three years ago because I both work out a lot and continued with MOing. Not until current reboot I did not know that my mood swings were mostly due to the porn addiction - I did not recognize them before, I thought it just part of my character. The worst PAWS came in my second reboot but things are much much better now and I do not wake up in the middle of the night or before alarm clock. I can say I am addiction free but I still did not fully recover (some PIED, not getting consistent morning wood and not getting full size erection). It will take time, which is fine.

 

I think it was at around 100-110 days but I cannot tell for sure. Keep in mind it also depends on your addiction - the more addicted you are the more time it will take. It so happens because you lack dopamine and by doing things that interest you + eating healthy foods + working out (especially HIIT from what people say) you will reduce that time.

 

I was just wondering, what is the point of this post?