MAY EXTREME SADNESS BE SOME SIGN OF REBOOT DURING NOFAP PROCESS??

Hi everybody. I need some advice. I started nofap officially on December 2017.
First I have to admit that i've not fully reached "90 days" yet. That means that I have relapsed here and there since december 2017. HOWEVER, i have improved a lot since December 2017, comparing the times before Dec2017 when I used to fap once/twice a day for like 10 years to Jan2018-June2018 when I have usually fapped only three times or four times a month on average. I mean that's not perfect but for sure it's a huge improvement. isn't it ? .


Now, since April 2018 until right now, specially today, I have noticed several benefits and " strange things" as well, especially on the emotional side:

PHYSICAL CHANGES:

1) My body fat has been reduced dramatically, like 3'5 inches of belly fat lost in 4 months.
2) My mom says that my face looks more grown up now, and I believe her cause my jaw has gotten stronger and I'm growing more and more beard.
3) I'm a little taller and my shoulders have broaden up.
4) I've started to grow thick hair on the receding lines from the top of my forehead.

EMOTIONAL/PSYCHOLOGICAL CHANGES:

1) Obviously if I'm on a high streak (14+days) I get really confident, especially on speechs infront of the class or any social situation. On the other hand, before nofap I used to be extremely shy in public, for example, I would turn as red as a tomato when I had to speak in public and also my voice used to tremble without control. Now all of that pussyness is almost fucking gone. We can say that I'm getting every day closer to alpha behaviors.

2) Here comes the strange thing: Before nofap I was kind of numb when it comes to emotions. Let's say that whenever I was sad i simply didn't really care very much about it. For example if some special girl had rejected me in the past I wouldn't have given a fuck and just move on. Or If I had gotten a terrible mark in the University I wouldn't have given a fuck either and I wouldn't even have gotten sad. Etc etc. We can say that every sad moment I had in the past didn't disturb me in any way. However, this first semester of 2018 I have recently passed with very good marks two subjects and failed only one (I was so close to pass this third one), and this subject that I failed got me so freaking sad that I started to cry like a baby inside my room tonight. Two months ago I argued with some special girl I met and probably we will never talk to each other again. I started to listen to Adele - Someone Like You and meanwhile I was remembering her I cried so loudly and unstoppably for like 1 hour or more like I had never did before in my entire life :/, alone in my room at night obviously.


So my question is: Why have i gotten so nostalgic/emotional during this whole reboot process? If i get sad for some important thing I really get very sad, unlike before nofap. Is this normal? any experience anyone? MIGHT THIS EXTREME SADNESS BE A REBOOT SIGN?

Maybe some people will say that it's depression, but it can't be depression cause i'm a very active person. I'm always doing stuff: either working out, studying, going out, playing an instrument, reading, meditating, etc.


THank you so much my brothers.!:

 

Let me clarify something: I always found pornography disgusting to be honest, specially hardcore porn. The only fact of seeing a man and a woman having sex in such a gross and rude way is shocking and offensive to me. I honestly think that it should be banned in every country, as Putin did in Russia, for example.

On the other hand, I must admit that I was addicted to fap to pictures of nude / semi nude girls, kind of "softcore" let's say. That was my addiction. Personally I don't consider it porn cause it doesn't show explicit sex. However I still wanna get rid of that behavior 100% cause it's still unhealthy and shameful.

 

That's nice to know. Btw i'm Catholic and I know that masturbation is a sin. Now I understand why, it's cause it drains a lot of your energy.