[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

That's no fun, but at least you know what caused you to relapse and how to prevent it next time.

 

Hey there, it sucks to relapse but at least you're honest with yourself, good luck as you retry,,

 

Cool advice p, except I can't stand cold water hahaha

 

23 complete, 67 remaining.

 

Day one.

 

Day 48/90

 

MY SECOND DAY

 

Day zero

 

19th day

 

Starting over. 0/90. I'll get it back. This time the streak won't stop

 

0/90

My F* brain. It didn't even feel that good. Actually it didn't feel good at all. Why the hell did I relapse?

 

11 days

 

Day 2
Everything's fine for the time being

 

Day 76

 

and i relapse

got very bored today and home alone. but i learn from it. it´s very important to keep your time occupied, free time and addiction recovery don´t match. so i´ll try to set an agenda in my mind for the next day, try to do the things that i really want with my free time, just need to set it on my mind and not go wandering about.

funny thing about the addicted brain. it never starts with porn, it´s too obvious, too bold, no, it´s always about a sneak peek here and there, some sexy image or whatsoever, and then it starts creeping in, seconds becomes minutes, you start drifting in pages, you get aroused and them comes the point you just say "fuck it" and have a full blown relapse.

very clever the addicted brain, secretly, slowly, softly, it puts you in a position when it´s very hard to turn back. like a predator, it sets the trap and only in the end you see his face

 

Eh, relapsed yesterday D:
Gotta start again, 01/90

 

Day 3 complete.

 

New
My goal is better self-esteem and self-confidence, more concentration and focus and power towards what I want in life and feeling good about who I am. I think the only possibly workable sexual activity for me that might not hinder that goal would be in a committed relationship, which has eluded me for 65 years and seems unlikely to happen any time soon, if ever. So my plan is to continue this path of committing to no PMO, and assume I will be staying with it for the rest of my life.

That said, I followed an impulse this afternoon to look at photos of attractive men online, which led to PMO. I think I was on day 95 or 96 of no PMO. I'm making another committment to 90 days of no PMO. In the previous commitment that has ended, I would still go into my head sometimes and fantasize about sexual acts. This time around, I intend to consciously avoid that.

 

Day 30/90 thanking God for another day, another opportunity to experience life porn free, thank God the urges are minimal, my focus is personal growth and meeting new people to basically add value to their lives.

 

Wow nice, getting close to the big goal,