Remembering the first time I reached 120 days noPMO

Hi,

this is going to be a post about my past, for me and hopefully for others to motivate them.

I'm going to write this because I had problems and relapsed over and over for almost silly reasons.

Here are the major thoughts I had before I relapsed

• "Oh, come on. You need this right now. You will feel better afterwards. You are stressed and this will end your stress."
  • Ended my 120 days streak
• "Look, here in this book it is recommended to give yourself a lovely masturbation. So, masturbation cannot be that bad, am I right?"
  • Ended my 70 days streak
• "Yeah, I know you're bored. You're sick and laying in bed right now, so, it doesn't really matter if you break the rules. Come on, just a peak. Maybe a good porn video. What could happen?"
  • Ended my 50 days streak

And this is how I felt after PMOing for some time

• Feeling social insecure and anxious when there is no obvious reason
• Feeling of lower worth towards other people
  
• Having self doubts
• Subconsiously going into the victim-mindset, always, when talking to somebody
• Having massive brain fog (I could not follow important thoughts in my head)
• Having some kind of depression, wanted to stay in bed for longer in the mornings
  
• The urge to isolate myself from others (because of feelings of unworthiness)
• Inner criticism got way out of hand (feelings of shame almost always within me)
  
• Could not control my thoughts, reacted to almost anything that somebody said (even when I desperately didn't want to)
• Being/feeling unproductive very often, resulting in feeling sad
  
• No inner peace

Things that led to PMO

• Using social media (esp. Instagram)
  
  • Seeing so much (half-)naked people makes you horny
  • Seeing so much "successfull and happy" people makes you sad
  • Social media gives you dopamin, and soon you want more (porn)
• Feeling bored
• Feeling sad
• Feeling unloved
• Feeling not welcomed / not a part of a group
• Feeling rejected

I don't say that NoPMO is a master weapon, but it leads you to deal with every feeling you have. Simply because you cannot run away from it. So, you learn to deal with your issues instead of numbing your pain with PMO. You mature as a man.

And now: Here were the benefits of 120 days noPMO for me

• Feeling socially secure
• Feeling like the alpha in a group (most people want to talk to you)
• Being productive (you have more time and you will overcome boredness)
• Higher selfesteem
• Feeling of "aura" --> Like your spirit is way bigger and people around you can feel it
• Extremely calm in social situation, no sign of self doubts
• My mind was totally clear. This was one of the best feelings ever. Never experienced this before in my whole life
• Life was colorfoul: I remember once seeing a butterfly and I was so astonished by its beauty
• Inner peace
• Self respect and selfworth leads other people to respect you and treat you better (it even worked within my family)
• Feeling important and worthy --> for the first time in my life, I realized that I AM SOMEONE. That feeling is priceless
• Higher motivation
• Less worries and doubts
• More risky

This list could go on and on. I don't know what noPMO makes for you, but for me it is clear: I become the best version of myself.


I hope this thread can motivate you somehow.

Best regards

Elias

 

Nice to read that some of you can take something out of this post, thank you (y)

Now that you mention it.. I think it was really after day 40. Maybe around day 50. I started to get more comfortable in my body and I hadn't these self doubts anymore whilst talking. But the time I realized the benefits, realized that something has indeed changed, was when I was sitting outside with a group of people who wanted to act in a movie. There were beautiful women who (almost all of them) wanted to talk to me. And next to me was this guy: He was kind of handsome, but out of no obvious reasons he couldn't manage to stay calm/relaxed and the women got bored with him and switched again to talking to me. I realized that I had gained something within me, like a calm strength. It was like sitting there and vibrating much positive energy.

 

I hope this is OK, if I link an article I wrote about the truth about PMO.
It is for the German readers out here. I also linked this NoFap Forum for the people who read my article and want to know more about.

https://eliasgreen.net/masturbation-die-wahrheit/

Best regards and stay strong people!

 

Unfortunately not. But it is just a summarization of the cons of PMO. The goal is to lead people to this forum to support them.

I think, in Germany it is a common problem with PMO which almost no one addresses.

 

Thank you for your comment.
I hope this encourages more people.

I'm on day 29 now (as I began new). The benefits are really surprising. If some one wants an UPDATE, like or comment and I can give you some Update about

1. Flatlines (why they are the most important situations in recovery)
2. My benefits
3. Combining NoPMO with something else, to speed up the recovery

Thanks for all the people who came to my site
https://eliasgreen.net/masturbation-die-wahrheit/
Especially, I'm thankful when I could help some people out there.

Stay strong!