Does anyone else find no P so much harder than No M/O?

That is not porn. Porn is what you find in dedicated websites.
And, even if it would be porn, you cannot delete this kind of content from every media, so you should learn how to manage urges from that.

 

Stay strong buddy! I know that feeling too. I recently start fighting with myself. The worst part is that my mind grieve upon all the P I will never watch. It become a part of my life and it's hard to let go.

 

I find not watching P to be much easier than no M today although i have had over three years experience of being abstinent from P now and my internet use stays within a set of strict rules and boundaries which keeps me safe and prevents me from making that choice again. Today it feels very much like a choice whereas a few years ago when i was at my worst it felt like an overbearing compulsion where i felt my capacity for choice got eroded. There is scientific reasoning behind that, it's been shown that the pre-frontal cortex shrinks and is adversely affected in those who have a porn addiction (and those who have drug addiction too). The pre frontal cortex is responsible for comparing and judgement and an addict or problem user tends to by pass that network in favour of seeking out pleasure which is coded in the brain as 'i need this to survive, it feels good so i need it' now i think 'i don't need it to survive, and in the end it felt terrible' so now with those years of abstinence as an advantage, my judgement and comparison is in a healthier state than it once was

 

Bro, you're an inspiration man.

 

no P. It's easy.
The big damn problem is, I AM a very good visualizer.

 

That's exactly my issue. I wanted to open a website just now with P and I realized I'm really addicted to it. I'm also very lonely, thus my desire to watch P. But damn I'm almost month without M and O and still I watch a lot.