Back again-- what a messed up life!

I started this challenge about a year ago under a different name. I failed pretty hard back then but it felt good while I was trying to overcome this problem. Now I am struggling with a massive, 20-year porn addiction that has badly damaged my marriage, faith, and career, and led me to thoughts of suicide. For indirectly related reasons, (lack of mental focus-- I wasn't using P at work) I have just lost a very good paying job. A week ago, my boss, being a very classy guy, gave me 90 days to find a new job, instead of giving me the boot immediately. A few days ago, I was at the end of my rope. Now, though, I am resolved to making plans and carrying them out, to quit PMO, to rebuild my marriage, to deepen my faith, lose 25 pounds and to become such a great candidate for a job that somebody feels compelled to hire me. I have 12 weeks left. Wish me luck. If you are any flavor of Christian, and especially for my Catholic brothers, pray for me. If I can succeed at this, it can be the greatest time in my life instead of the worst.

 

Thank you. I am going out to pray and meditate later this morning and will keep you in mind.

 

You have got that right, man. Thanks.