21 yo, PIED, 2 months on NoFap, Cuckold, Gay thoughts, HOCD etc

I easily get 90-100% erection when I didn’t have sex for 1-2 days. After I go 1-2 rounds it’s usually harder to get 100% erection, and I usually need a bit more stimulation and concentration.
MW were and still are inconsistent, but they are much better, and now when I am living full time with a girl I usually wake up hard or semi hard.
When it comes to libido, at first I felt numb completely both physically and mentally. Now I would say that my libido is 50% in my mind (what I see - body etc) 50% physical (touch etc).

 

Ok, some new updates. Successfull sex in different positions. My libido is much stronger, I can go more and more rounds, I feel sexually excited even when we are just hugging, holding hands, or I am looking at her. The most important thing is - I really WANT to have sex. I am not afraid of it, and basically I am ready to go any time. Still feel that my full potential libido is not there, but it is close.

 

I am glad I helped. I hope one day you will recover and motivate others!

 

My MWs improved and are much longer and stronger. I get very strong erections when my girl touches me. I feel very horny lately, desires are almost unbearable, despite me having sex regularly. Still not fully wired, but I am heading there on a skyrocket. Never thought that I will see this much improvement that fast. When you have the opportunity to rewire - go for it. Don’t wait, sexual function works exactly like Pavlov’s dog. You need to orgasm a couple of times around your girl in order for your brain to make connection girl = pleasure. Allow yourself to make mistakes, don’t get discouraged when something doesn’t work out. Relax, ask your girl to masturbate you. Ask your girl to perform oral if she is into that. If you can’t get it up, give it a time. I didn’t say to my girl that I had ED, my girl was just passionate enough to be with me. She helped me big time and doesn’t even know about that. It may not be the same with you, so think twice what exactly will you tell your woman, if she asks you something. Also, some advice - go with a simpler, less experienced girl. You will grow together both physically and mentally and gain a lot of experience. And, if you have the opportunity to live with girl - take it. Living together, sleeping etc. is also a huge thing.

Some other observations, I realized, that I was also a victim to prone masturbation. I masturbated with limp penis and dick folded in half. This also had great effect on me because at first my dick was hard, but still soft at base, so it could bend. Now it’s hard and I can penetrate easier. Sometimes it’s not 100% but a couple of strokes makes it hard. When I started, I needed up to an hour in order for it to get hard.

 

Improvements are so great, not even funny. 0 desires to watch porn, or fetish fantasies. Erections are better, I can now switch positions in bed, without losing erection, even after 2-3 rounds. Giving your woman a pleasure is the best thing for your self-confidence that you can get. First time I entered her she had orgasm in 10 seconds, I had orgasm in 15 seconds (approximately). My stamina increased a lot since, sometimes she cums 3-4 times in my 1 round. I could last up to an hour. I also feel a lot more confident and relaxed during sex. My muscles are relaxed. The size of my erect penis has also improved, my girl pointed it out. I think it’s because of better erection quality. MW are consinstent. When I am just laying near my girl, I am always semi-hard.

 

I respect all of my desires, if they have to do something with women, parts of their bodies and something that feels natural. However, when I started rewiring I consciously gave myself a promise that until I wire 100% to vanilla sex, I won’t implement anything in my sexual life other than vanilla. No role plays, no sexy lingerie, no toys. The more I wire myself in vanilla direction, the less I feel that I even want anything else. It just feels so great and natural.

 

Yesterday had my first 100% boner without touch. It just popped out of my trousers when I went down on girl. I didn’t have sex for a couple of days, and still could last considerable amount of time.

 

Consistent morning woods, consistent hard erections when going down on girl. Sometimes I am softer when I go second-third round immediately after the first one, but that’s rare and I think it’s normal even for non-masturbators. But I can still go that second round even being softer.