I've got to change

So I'm a 24 year old New Yorker desperately looking for a way out of my addiction. I had an account here before I believe but I deleted cause I felt like I wasn't going anywhere with it. Anyways I need help getting rid of my addiction to fetish videos and other content online. I've been trying to quit for many years now and though I have been successful at ignoring my urges in the past, that resistance hasn't lasted very long and now I can't even go a week without relapsing and it makes me very frustrated. I thought that in order to succeed in overcoming this, I would need to strengthen my resolve but now I've come to the conclusion that I cannot do this on my own and that I need help from others but I refuse to go to people I know. I don't know what to do now!