Getting through tough times

Hi guys,

Im single. Age 28, I have been feeding porn for years. Tried so many ways to stop but after 51 or 30 or 20 days falling again into the porn trap. Did so much effort come out but that much greatly falling.
Recently I have done serious promise to stop watching porn. I did so many things to avoid and created 52 days streak. I was so happy and got confidence but after that many days abstaining from porn, my brain was start imagining/needed for massage, fornication and other kind if stuff. Eventually, relapsed. Swallowed great sad and started again but after 4 days (yesterday) again relapsed. I want to cry, want to run away from these materialistic world, want to stay in small village where is no network. Hmm But I can't do these things. Today, again started no PMO journey with a hope. I will do hard work again.

Please provide some tips, help me to stand on my promise. I'm doing so many things to avoid porn, like workout, healthy diet, making busy, etc. I will update my story and streaks chunk by chunk on this thread.
Thanks for reading.

 

Thank you for standing with me. Let's make a defensive wall before the triggers or imagination are fired. Once it's triggered, we unable to stop the bullet and then we act out.
Today i have boosted my self a lot by reading rebooting related article. Daily, I will try to clean my porn memories. I don't want to wake up with guilty night.

 

You know, each time we relapse, what we always promises to ourself? "Now no porn, i hate it blah blah...morning, waking up with lots of energy and remembering all those promises about not to watch porn but then at night again relapses are takes place. Its continuous vicious cycle. Afraid to one more new promise as somany Promises were failed .I have fed up with this pleasure-guilt cycle. Have any permnent solution or.clue to break this cycle?
Yeah, I never ever give up. Today is my 2nd day with out PMO. Hope my 90 days journey go smooth. I will try my best till I die.

 

My current condition, its 11pm, Porn pleasure slowly popping out. I'm avoiding it forcefully.

 

Trying all those things.. just staying 1 min alone also enough to fire trigger. My situation is going to worse. Morning waking up with so much confidence but not automatically falling into that trap and watching porn

 

Damn just now I have watched porn for 90 min. Now feeling guilty. Oh god, how can i break this addiction. I'm surprised, recently how I made 52 days streak? From past one week, I'm unable to abstaining from porn to 2 to 3 days atleast. Wish i can die. But death is not the solution. Hmm I have to fight I do one more try.I have to train myself before the craving.My all promises were failed.when my brain say now I won't ask for porn, I want to laugh at myself. It's a LIE. Want spit some filth on my face. Don't how I show my face to God on the judgement day.

 

Thank you brother. Sure, I will read that book. Your words really motivating us. Love to here more from you. Everytime trying for success but failing very badly. I think something is missing. I have to try more sincerely and have to get more knowledge on daily basis.

 

Tried, tried......, agin trying in all the ways ... that's the only option we have bro.

 

Yes, you are right. I will go.

 

I had made a strong decision i was so close to success but after a long streak, one relapse is enough to drag in multiple relapses. See below.

My nofap report
1. No Pmo, 25th August to 15th October = 52 days
Relapsed on 16th October
2. No Pmo, 17th Oct to 20 Oct = 4days
Relapsed on 21 Oct
3. No Pmo, 22 to 23 Oct = 2days
Relapsed on 24 and 25 oct
4. No pmo started today 26 October- (hope i won't pmo again)

 

Getting lots of hope, made a strong decision. I will return after1 week without pmo

 

I'm so busy in these days.Finally, 7 days are completed with out porn. I Hope I never go again in that filth. I'm little afraid because the enemy is so strong, It will hunt me anytime when I get bore/free/stress etc.. Let's see what happen?