[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day O.

I’ve been to various 12 step programs— but who am I kidding. My only major addiction has been porn. It took seven years to admitt it to another person, as it’s something I ashamedly do, counter to all my spoken values. Telling somebody else and not literally dying of shame felt like a good first step, but it wasn’t enough. I’m seriously hoping that finding a community of Fapstronauts online and actively participating will be the answer. Feeling hopeful and grateful that something like this is out there.

 

thank for making the decision to kick PMO out of your life because of it you motivate someone like me to keep on moving. just like you i'm on day 0, so don't worry you aren't alone we are doing this together.

 

(1+1+1+1+1+1+1+1+1=9/90)

 

that's it, step by step

 

Day 13 complete. Feeling much better than I did 24 hours ago.

 

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14th day today, Anxiety, depression and frustation all of them have come to say "hi"

 

14/90

 

Day 3! I feel great. No Urges!

 

Thanks frank hahaha

 

Guys I Hate to break the Bad news. Today Day 43/90 I relapsed by sexting and ejectulating (first 6 hours not even one thought of fapping) after 7 hours of sextings. No Porn was involved. Whole afternoon after 2Pm i was slipped into sexting with girls. I did with almost with 3..4 girls. And ejected or fapped only at the final girl. with first3 girls i didnt fap or not even had the thought of fapping. The funny part is after i relasped i dont feel any guilt. Seriously guys you have no idea how much i tried not to slip. I sorry for relapsing.
If i observe my whole situation, I didnt felt like seeing porn insteaded i wanted sex with girl like anything. I didnt felt like masterbating for around 6 hours. So My mind is more about sex with girls not the PM. I want to be back on the streak starting now.

 

Day 13

 

Day 43 without mastrubation and pornography

 

2/90

This morning has been tough again. I'm looking forward to this getting easier!

 

Day 31 to 33 done.

 

day 4 update

 

Day 17/90
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I have been fapping for 8 years. This is really a problem . It has disconnected me from my inner me. When i came in high school ... I could not even feel the emotions .. Seriously... I m not joking .. I couldnt cry .... I couldn't feel confidence... I couldn't feel if i was confidence.... I could not feel the fear ... Fapping has snatching my life force from me...
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And later it developed the knee pain which is still there for 4 years...
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Now, i have been avoiding PMO for 2 month.. Slipped once 18 days ago.
Then started again with my dedication... I also noticed that writing here.. Also helps me.
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But todays topic is not this one.
As this is my 17 day.
Yet i have experienced wet dream twice.
Now i suddenly started feeling emotional outbursts not once or twice its three times when i was listening songs .. It was like i would definately cry now.. But i was in public place so i kept controlling it..
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Looks like all the emotions buried down in my deep soul for the 6 years are coming out now... If anyone experienced similar issue Please share ur view or experience.

 

We are here for you! If you're open to suggestions I'd say come on this website a lot, use the emergency button on this website often for the first week or two, and just take it one day at a time. Sometimes just one breath at a time, one urge at a time. When sexual thoughts and porn images come into the mind, try to redirect your thinking as soon as possible. Read the success stories forum, and basically if you connect with others on here, post on here every day, and make that commitment that for just today you'll do whatever it takes to avoid pmo, you can overcome this. Good luck @misaal

 

11\90
keep going on guys!!

 

Ive had many experiences like that! You are feeling your feelings, that is a good thing. There will be many ups and downs. I've found it best to try to this: don't get too excited when it's going well, and don't get too depressed when it's difficult. Our moods will always change, but we can learn to be the witness behind everything, to watch our moods come and go. And we can learn positive tools that work for us like exercise, helping others, meditation, prayer, yoga, journaling, posting here every day. Find what works for you.

I've dealt with different addictions, and I've had big emotions come up at different times, and I agree that it's our feelings below the surface finally coming up to be seen and felt by us. It's natural, sometimes beautiful, sometimes scary, but you're right where you're supposed to be @YesIMpossible, keep going!