No Choice left! (31 days)

I have given this title because I feel that I don't have any option or choice left apart from doing nofap...
My introduction-
Iam 26 year old boy hooked up to porn and masterbation for about 10 years ...My last 5 years were full of porn and masterbation....I was fapping multiple times per day...
Why did I start nofap?
In Dec 12 2016 I experienced one epilepsy attack at bathroom due to over fapping and lack of sleeps..The cause of epilepsy was due to weakness of nerves due to over fapping....When I took hot shower I got unconscious...From
that instance I got to know that fapping is very dangerous so I started to quit this addiction...I never had abstained even more that 20 days before that incident...
Where Iam now?
I have currently finished day 31 of nofap hard mode and still counting days ...In last 6 months I tried hard and reached some minor milestones of 26,28 and 29 days...My monthly average in last 6 months is around 4 times per week..
What's my experience in these 31 days?
First of it was very hard...I have seen low than high in this journey...I almost flatlined for the whole month...I was feeling bit better between 14-24 days...From 25 days it was hell on earth...Iam experiencing severe anxiety,panic attacks,Head pressure,Dizziness,Tremors,high heart rate ,jelly legs etc as withdrawal symptoms...I am not in a state to enjoy this victory and Infact Iam feeling hopeless...
Benefits I noticed so far!
1.Increased energy for sure.
2.Social anxiety is reduced significantly and can hold a good conversation with anyone...
3.Started to enjoy little things in life such as the morning sunlight,birds pleasent tones etc
4.Increased confidence and proud feeling have started to arrive..
5.Good quality of sleep.
6.My digestion is improved significantly..
My next target is 60 days and I will definitely post after my 60 day mark!
Also if you are interested in my daily journal please go through the below link!
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/i-will-do-it-this-time.199220/page-3#post-1773008

 

I totally agree with you my bro...At high anxiety times I feel like Iam looser and when that storm stops i feel like Iam winner..Porn definitely try to fool us by rationalising or even by making us feel hopeless...Thanks for ur words bro!

 

Iam fighting because this is the only option left for me!I will definitely stay strong and calm ...Withdrawals are able to shake but they will never be able to stop me this time!

 

Yea brother..It's game of consistency..If we leave good positive habits then we will surely have a relapse so consistency of good habit is the key for success...

 

Thanks for wishing me..Iam looking forward to read your success story soon...Iam now realising that these withdrawals are temporary and to be honest these withdrawals are making me stronger...

 

Iam not exactly saying that fapping causes epilepsy...In my whole life I have experienced only one epilepsy attack...The thing is fapping makes our nerves weaker...Due to over fapping my nerves in the forehead became weaker...when I took hot shower my nerves became numb and I became unconscious...Doctor name it as hot water epilepsy...

 

Thanks bro...Iam writing daily journal here which is making me feel better...I will surely take ur advices and apply in my life to overcome addiction..

 

Thanks for sharing your words...These words matters a lot..This community is really good...I know it's hard to say NO but if I want YES in my happy life then I should start enforcing NO to my bad habits...