I'm Tired of This

I feel you dude, I'm 18 and I've been watching porn since I was 10. I recently realized that my sexual urges were just non-existent. I wouldn't get horny during school or hard at all except when watching. I looked at myself and realized that for basically as much as I can remember, I have been watching porn? I was so disgusted that I fell into a deep depression for over five months, I spoke to no one because I don't trust anyone with information like this about me, nor am I good enough friends with anyone to talk about this. And yeah I'm also pretty lonely, girls aren't really a part of my life because my libido has just been so overwhelmed by porn that I can't get sexually aroused. PIED is what I have, unfortunately, and it SUCKS. I wish all this internet filth wasn't introduced to me, my life would have been a lot better. All we can do now is leave it behind us and try to rid ourselves of this addiction. I wish you luck on your journey as I'm starting again as well. I recently relapsed after only a week into 90 days, but I'm going to try again starting today.

 

It's good that you are disgusted - get serious about defeating it because it will cost you everything in life that is worthwhile. It "feels" impossible to get rid of but it is not. You have built the intensity of desire up through bad choices, now do your reboot to weaken the desire to a manageable level.

I and many others here are living proof that you can do it. Don't deceive yourself into thinking that your desires are somehow stronger - they are not. In fact, your desire is very weak when PMO is a habit.

It's not impossible - the main part of defeating PMO is the way you look at it. Your beliefs and attitudes are 99% of it.

 

Yeah I'm tired of my habit too. Just started yesterday and already gave in today. I feel disgusted but not defeated. I need to not give into impulses and snap out of the habit.

We can do this one day at a time.

 

I am completely able to relate man. Send me a message and we can keep each other motivated. One thing you need to understand though is that, you have to always keep your guard up. For example, I glanced at a poster on my way to work the other day and ended up relapsing that same night. This community is here or you.

 

Educate yourself, motivate others, never let your guard down, be aware of you porn watching patterns. This is knowledge from 6 years of addiction. Please use it wisely.

 

I know that feeling. During the act I'm thinking "fuck it" and when it's over I think "well that wasn't worth it". Glorified fantasy gives us nothing beneficial or real.

 

There is the power inside you, that you can stay away from porn. I managed for 2 years. It is worth it. Relapsing feels terrible, but you can get back on track

 

I'm 18, and I'm starting it again from today
Fucking tired of being slave
Let's do it
Feel free to text me

 

Can

 

hey there
basically porn destroyed my life , i look back to myself before porn and i feel Desperate i was so much smarter and social i used to be the first in my class but now i keep fall in college , i don't have a gf also and i cant get one . i got these thoughts too all over the day that make me hate myself and the person who iam , i was thinking about killing myself to stop feeling that way , i dont know what to do .

 

You got this bro!! When I was your age I wasn't even trying to address my issues, so props. One day at a time man.

 

Hey bro, I can totally relate. That's basically what I've been going through, porn has driven me to almost kill myself. Remember that there's so much beauty in this world, we just can't see it right now because this addiction has skewed our perspective. If you ever need to talk I'm here for you.