My struggle to the 90 days

Every day , I will write here my journal , especially at morning, to announce my progress and my achievement , so my goals right now is to reach 90 days without PMOing , so all my activities will split up in studying , training hard in the gym to build my body , reading books , eating right , so let's go !!

 

Thank u bro , life is appealing us this year , so we should respond

 

Together bro

 

Day 2 , let's live it right

 

I relapse , new start again but this one , I will be sincere with myself

 

Very inspiring ,,

I heard it is physiologically healthy to write a goodbye letter to your addiction (Imagine your addiction as a person), that will help to recover. I wrote my letter and i would like to share with everyone here.

Dear Porn,

Thank you so much for being with me for almost the last 15 years of my life. You gave me a temporary good feeling during the hardest times of my life. Every failure or tough situation, I encountered in high school, bachelor degree or the Masters degree you were there for me even in the most stressful days during work, you helped me to feel better, when my father was diagnosed with lung cancer stage 2B, I was scared as hell and PMO was the only thing that made me feel better, when I moved to live in Germany during the toughest times of homesickness you were almost the only thing that made me feel happy or at least feeling temporary better, when the girl that I loved, broke up with me. The first thing that I did was running to my screen to have a dosage of relief even when I had a crush to another girl and she rejected me, I was running to home, like a dog running to catch a piece of meat but that feeling was always …always temporary and fake. For me that was not enough I always needed more and more. You (Porn) never solved any of my problems - You just numbed my feelings and emotions for some time.

I realised that your harms are far more than your benefits, I realised that I shouldn’t be alone and I should move on with my life. I should meet more people and seek my own happiness. I can’t support this industry - even thought I never spent any money on you. I can not increase the number of the viewers. I can not motivate people to invest time or money on building or expanding such an industry.


For the following reasons, I decided to stay away from you

• A lot of people are suffering sexually because of you.
• Some people lost their jobs because of you.
• Some women suffers every single night because their partners can not satisfy them and they can not share their pain with anyone because of you.
• Some innocent children will suffer and have a tough childhood because their parents will get divorced because of you.
• Some young guys are becoming more and more depressed and they do not want to be connected with the real people because of you.
• Many young men are diagnosed with ED and PE because of you.
• Many guys are learning to treat women in a bad aggressive way because of you.
• Some guys started to love beating girls because of you.
• Some men objectify women and started to judge women based on their bodies & looks - not their characters because you.
• Many married couples started to stop loving each others because they compares their partners with what they sees on the screen and that’s of course because of you.
• Some innocent women are being insulted, humiliated and forced to work in this industry for the money, because of you.
• Many people may suffer from deadly diseases because of you.
• Even some pornstars died from deadly diseases or committed suicide whether because of extreme depression or overdose because of you.
• Children younger than 13 years old are becoming porn addicts because of you.
• Many people start comparing themselves with what they see on the screen and became more and more depressed because of you.
• Some people might be future criminals because of you.
• Many women were victims and got raped because of you.
• Some women started to have desensitized gentials because of you.
• Some addicts jumped to extreme categories such as aggressive porn or sex to children or animals because of you.

Even thought I didn't go to the extreme levels but I still might reach that level one day, I might miss you but I CAN’T … I really Can’t increase the numbers +1, I can not be selfish anymore, I can not be a hypocrite person, I never ever thought that I was destroying the society by watching porn but the truth is Yes, I did that. Before asking to change my surroundings, I should change myself first, then I will start helping others not to fall in the same trap that I fell into. Goodbye porn….

 

The only one who can help you is you. You've got to want it more than you want to use porn. What helped me was a form of visualization.

Imagine what your life could be like if you did everything right for 3 months, 6 months, a year, or however long it takes you to recover. You're not using porn, you're eating right, hitting the gym hard, studying hard if you're in school, making an effort to socialize, etc. Just imagine what your life could be like in such a short amount of time. Maybe you finally get a girlfriend, you clear up your acne, put on 20 lbs of muscle, make the deans list, whatever. Just imagine what could realistically be your life pretty soon.

Now you're going to do the opposite. Imagine what your life would be like you woke up 10 years from now in a life where you indulged all of your worst habits. You're jacking off multiple times a day to whatever you consider your most repulsive desire just to get to normal, your dick barely works and you have to take pills just to get semi hard, you're working some dead-end menial service job, you've not exercised in years and are a total slob, and all your friends moved on with their lives and are starting families of their own so you barely see anyone.

Both of these lives could be yours. Run towards the first one. Think about it every day and when you feel yourself slipping up (we all do), just think back to your own personal hell that you imagined and remember that it's a lot closer than you think.

 

The only one who can help you is you. You've got to want it more than you want to use porn. What helped me was a form of visualization.

Imagine what your life could be like if you did everything right for 3 months, 6 months, a year, or however long it takes you to recover. You're not using porn, you're eating right, hitting the gym hard, studying hard if you're in school, making an effort to socialize, etc. Just imagine what your life could be like in such a short amount of time. Maybe you finally get a girlfriend, you clear up your acne, put on 20 lbs of muscle, make the deans list, whatever. Just imagine what could realistically be your life pretty soon.

Now you're going to do the opposite. Imagine what your life would be like you woke up 10 years from now in a life where you indulged all of your worst habits. You're jacking off multiple times a day to whatever you consider your most repulsive desire just to get to normal, your dick barely works and you have to take pills just to get semi hard, you're working some dead-end menial service job, you've not exercised in years and are a total slob, and all your friends moved on with their lives and are starting families of their own so you barely see anyone.

Both of these lives could be yours. Run towards the first one. Think about it every day and when you feel yourself slipping up (we all do), just think back to your own personal hell that you imagined and remember that it's a lot closer than you think.

 

1/90

 

1/90

 

2/90 , inchalah a good day

 

3/90 , inchalah a good day

 

4/90 , to my life

 

6/90

 

Pff , I failed , but I won't be disappointed , all is well