10% gay?

So I'm still into transgender pornography. (Yeah I still beat my meat to weird porn, sue me.) However I have given that sissy shit a miss for a long time now.

I've (I think) been a fully straight man my entire life. However, TG porn kinda threw a spanner in the works. But why do I get off on that stuff? Because normal porn is too boring with screamy, plastic titted, empty pornstars?

I can't blame sissy hypnosis because that came after the arousal of TG porn. It's even got to the point where if a dude is packing enough, I think - fuck it. And start j*rking over 'forced' male fantasies. So this TG fantasy to some extent has now dipped a toe in the gay pool. Don't really like it, and usually feel weird and uncomfortable afterwards.

I never look at men in my day to day life and think that way at all. The idea (no offence to gay people)*ironic, but to me, is gross.

In conclusion, dig TG girls, and even get off over forced bi stuff... but find romantic relationships, even kissing, hand holding, being in ANY way intimate with another dude is disgusting to me... So is it just a d*ck attraction? Being abused so much in my own life that it's found a way into my sexuality, and I just get a weird kick out of being submissive to things I'd usually find gross? Do I just hate myself and enjoy delivering confusement and low self esteem? Is it just a fetish? Can you be 10% gay? It's not even bicurious. I'd say that's more 25% and up.

 

'Sometimes you gotta suck a d*ck to realise you don't like sucking d*ck'. But to be fair I couldn't. Not with anyone I know, craigslist, gloryhole, you name it.

It'd have to be a trans girl like the ones you see in P. Ones I've seen aren't convincing. Or one of the 10 male pornstars in the world where I've said to myself 'you know what, I would.'

But this alone I think shows that it's just a fetish and it's more exciting to me because it's 'wrong' and out of my taste/comfort zone.

 

I'm 22, been at it since 12. Saw it a few times between the ages of 8-12 but at that time it didn't really interest me. Just my friends messing around. My teenage years were pretty constant with PMO. I still have a high sex drive to this day, but that's only amplified by my girlfriend's low, once-a-week-or-less sex drive.

I think porn can mess with you to an extent. But if I started watching beastiality p or something I would never slowly and gradually ease into it and start getting off on it.

If I saw one of the TG stars that I've seen, I'd drop to my knees without hesitation though lol. They seem to be the perfect mix of femininity and having a c*ck, something that seems to be my main fixation.

 

To be honest I wasn't worried, I do find the idea of being intimate with a man gross but I'm not thinking like 'I hope I'm not even 10% gay because that'd be awful' if that makes sense.

Quitting is tough. Really tough. I guess I haven't tried that hard because I figured I'm in my early 20s, been with a girl for years who rarely wants sex.. so I figured I'm just a man reaching his prime, who is constantly teased seeing his girlfriend naked and not having sex as much as I'd personally like to. Kinda see it as natural personally.

However, the more taboo stuff isn't right. I've gradually gone down the rabbit hole without even noticing. However, I did PMO today before work and it was to m*lf solo pictures, not even videos. Sad to say I was kinda proud of myself just for getting off (very easily actually) over that. The classic stuff still has it's novelty

 

Is it bad that I'd be interested in discussing TG stars with you? Hahah, it's probably because that's not the kind of thing you admit/discuss with your pals in day to day life.

Thanks for sharing man, just got to have the will power to resist an addiction that lost it's novelty and progressed into making shit weird.

 

The only thing sad about people 'quitting' is that some people maybe had nothing to quit. Some people might know they're gay and live a life of lies. But to me it sounds like you were in the same boat and just gave yourself a slap round the face. Woke up from the nightmare you created yourself by over-indulging in stuff you wouldn't usually like.

 

Ayyy great comment bro thanks for posting that

 

Life lesson buddy: we're all different. different tastes, different situations, brains, upbringings, social settings, countries, taboos, boundaries, etc.

But thanks for taking some time out of your day to be the one negative person on this feed who dropped in to make fun of someone and gloat that they're not in the same situation.

You're on NOFAP, I'm sure there's some fucked up reason for you having an active account on this platform too. So either be considerate, or mind your own god damn business.