Help!!!!!!!! I am a Sissy addicted to everyrhing

I'm a huge advocate of opening up to your wife, there are two of you in this relationship, even if she doesn't know yet. She is likely suffering and blaming herself.
As for yourself, read here and learn, stay away from PMO for 90 days and see where your mind is then.

 

hi.
I know the kind of videos u have been watching.. are the sissy training videos with vocal instructions and binaural waves. If what u say is true, Im afraid that the videos you have been watching might have affected your brain. I watched a few of these videos before, they gave me a strange feeling, I never had before watching porn. I observed these kind of videos and noticed the way they where made. The pulsating lights, the images, the binaural beats, they all had a strong effect on the watcher. I was scared and shocked to see that they where trying to convert man into these "sissy man", they where like a hypnosis programming video. I started to google around and found out that these videos with these specific effects, especially the binaural waves has a strong effect on the limbic part of the brain. Especially when associated with orgasms or other strong emotions they have a strong affect on your brain, rewiring and reprograming your subconscious, its some kind of hypnossis. Now that I heard your story(if it is true or not..), I'm thinking they really work...

My advice.. If it is serious(sounds likely) u need to consult with a proffesionist, a psycologyst or smthing about sexual dissorders. abstain from porn or any other fantasy, no matter what your are thinking. Learn to meditate (it strengthens your mind and less likely to be affected by those), keep yourself occupied, start running do sports and most importantly be opened and honest with your wife.

sorry for bad english.

 

It is the addiction and not you. You have opened up about being in a very dark place, we have been there too. You are not who your addicted brain is telling you who you are. Get some distance from the porn and things WILL become clear. There are many of us who look back on the insanity of our acting out- you are not alone in this

 

Thank you for sharing this - it shows me where I could end up if my addiction were to run wild (though I am more of a cuck and would want to act out my big cock obsession through my gf)

There’s been some good advice already and I agree that your best net for getting this under control is:
1. Tell someone that you trust and who has your best interest at heart (if you can tell your wife that would be great!) - keeping this a secret only makes it worse
2. Take a long, long break from porn and masturbation

Best of luck to you!!

 

The porn has the guilt. So take care of that business.

 

Friend, you have to start from the beginning. Like from the very, very beginning - when you were 5 years old and go through your entire life. Would you be able to reflect on your past, especially your childhood, your parents, any sexual traumas, other addictions in the family? Everything matters. Please take time to write in details.

 

congratz on day 2. I guess this is your begining. keep it up, remeber its all in your brain. Your past traumas or experiences my lead to this, its deep inside your brain. Its curable but its not easy. From your posts that I have read it looks like it has deep roots from childhood. try recalling everything and most importantly try meditating, it really helps to strengthen your mind and keep the urges at bay. What your are doing is not Ok AT ALL, no matter what your mind is telling you, its gona be a taugh fight but its worth it.
good luck.

 

Maybe one reason that you are attracted to crossdressing is that your mother got so much attention and approval for being beautiful?? (just an idea)
I would not be surprised if there were over a million men in the world with this fetish (that would make it about 1 in 4000)
I think I have some major and some minor reasons for having similar desires. Domineering mother was one of them. But not having a lot of male figures in my life I think was a major reason - I was expected to act like a male, but I had no brothers, no uncles, and my father worked all the time, so who did I have to learn from? My mother and my sister.
My older sister was considered to be very attractive and she was very popular in school while I was a nerd. Reading you post has me thinking . . . maybe that is part of the reason why I got into these things.

Perhaps finding out why other people are into it might help you to understand it.

That and staying away from porn. Congrats on day 2!!!

 

Thanks to everyone on this thread. NOBODY IS ALONE IN ANY OF THIS!

 

I have watched too that sissy porn. It is very addictive stuff. I have never done cross-dressing etc. But seem that way that I am in danger to do something like that... If I continue watch porn. Today has been hard, but I am pretty close to get "30 days without porn achievement". That was my mark.
Anyway, fight on people, do your best. Like need2change16 wrote, no one is alone in this.

 

You are a man(or arent you? XD)! You have to find back the man inside of you. If you like to dress like a woman and like to get dildos like you say, i think that you have a feminine nature or energy, OR porn have drained the masculinity in you, this is a way I see it. Keep in mind this concept it can be the root of your problems.

 

I needed to read this thread. I began watching sissy hypno for a dare and it has comprehensively destroyed my life. Broken up a great relationship, led me to live as a recluse. I wake up, turn on the computer, edge for hours while fantasizing about being the women that turn me on, then have an orgasm after hours of edging. I go back to bed because I'm exhausted. Rinse and repeat. Every. Single. Damn. Day.

Spoiler: May be triggering in terms of content

It's got to the point now where my prostate has swollen up so much that orgasms just hurt because of all the edging I am doing. I've had medical tests. I don't have any serious issues relating to my prostate. I just need to rest the whole area but I can't. My hand is forever down there, playing with myself. I feel totally feminine now all the time. I wear panties, stockings, suspenders. I have used butt plugs but because of the prostate pain now, I can't do that.

There's definitely something very evil within sissy hypnosis videos because I find that when I see a hot woman now, I immediately start to suck my fingers and start to swish and sway and then I feel I am the woman I am looking at. If I can keep a sense of perspective and know I am viewing a woman all I can see is a big cock spurting cum. It's scary. Also, when I get that urge to act out on my feelings of femininity I find myself calling out things like "I want cock." "I want to suck cock." "Make me a sissy bitch, daddy" "I want to be a girl" and things like that. It feels like I have been completely taken over by something very evil. It's like I'm under some kind of MK Ultra mind control program.

I worry I will never be that masculine straight man I was just 2 years ago. I worry this stuff has destroyed my mind totally. I have spoken with sissies who have come here, done the 90 days and beyond and have all ended up going back to sissy porn. That terrifies me. I want a girlfriend and a life and I have no life at all at the moment. I relapsed again tonight and I feel completely and utterly broken inside.