I'm not going to go back

Hi guys! I completed my 90 days reboot a while ago and I'm now going at 120 days of no PMO. I was addicted for whole 6 years, and tried to quit for 2 years until I now succeeded. I'm glad I was able to make it so fast and so young, and I'm really grateful to all the people and this forum for helping me out.

During my journey I discovered some things I've not acknowledged during my years of addiction, when pretty much everything felt so much more monotonous, plain and dull. Now when I've been without PMO for 120 days I'm feeling much more pleasure from everyday things like petting my cat, taking a walk, listening to some great music, playing a song on my guitar, solving a difficult mathematical problem or watching a good movie.

Now that my brain isn't so numb from PMO anymore, I discovered that I'm a really emotional person. When I was addicted I only seldom felt like crying or laughing. I've also slowly become to realize that there's so much more in the world to discover and experience than women. I've especially taken interest in music and hiking now. Instead of PMO, I've started studying hard and playing guitar more, and I'm planning to take music theory classes and violin lessons soon.

My social interaction has also become so different from what it used to be. First of all, I'm able maintain eye contact during conversations. Secondly, I can casually talk with my friends as well as other people without being so nervous. These aside, I'm still an introvert and a pretty quiet person, but now I'm not so socially awkward anymore. I can also talk to girls normally and take them as normal human beings instead of just starting to fantasize about them right away. I also made a few new friends during my reboot.

After all the struggle, I'm glad I didn't give up. At times it felt almost impossible, just failure after failure. Still I kept struggling and here I am now, with a 120 days streak, and I've no single regret about my reboot. Still, I regret wasting my childhood watching porn.

I'd like to thank all the people who encouraged me to keep going, as well as the whole nofap community. I would never have made it without these forums. Next I'm going to keep going forward and try to live life to the fullest, since I've already lost so many years to porn.

Now I can safely say, I'm not going to go back

Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts! My English isn't top notch and probably my formatting sucks too, but that's not stopping me from writing .

 

Thank you!

 

Thank you!

 

I never did get really good in fighting the urges, but over time I succeeded with some things, like going out for a run, meditation, taking a cold shower, doing push ups 'till I dropped to the ground, watching motivational videos (there's some really great ones in YouTube) and using the nofap forums panic button on the top right corner of the site. These more or less helped me in my early reboot when I used to get a lot of urges. I can recommend especially panic button and motivational videos, since I feel like they helped me the most on the time of struggle. Meditation pretty much worked out for the smaller urges, but couldn't get it to work on the stronger ones, since I couldn't focus at all when they hit. When possible, taking a run outside and taking a cold shower can be pretty effective ways to stop the urges. It worked out usually, but I couldn't bring myself to use cold showers a lot since it was just way too uncomfortable, at least in winter.

If I had to say, I'd say my best weapon against desperate moments were motivational videos. When the worst urges hit, I would just go to YouTube and watch the same motivational videos again and again. Sometimes it worked out pretty soon, sometimes I watched them for hours, and sometimes I failed even though I watched them, but I'd say it was still the best way for me to repel the urges. (Here's the one I used to watch the most: )

Stay strong and keep going!

 

No problem it might not work for everyone, but at the time I found them really motivating because PMO wasn't my only problem back then. Motivational videos just sort of gave me a little push forward and inspired me to do something about the problems in my life instead of just living with them.

 

Thank you! Glad it helped you out