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Cake; after the crisis

Discussion in 'Significant Other Journals' started by 0111zerozero11, Jan 23, 2019.

  1. bobross

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    As Shrek says, better out than in :) I sometimes just write my thoughts and feelings when feeling overwhelmed, resulting in a couple pages of senseless blabber, which I then burn
     
  2. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    May I use as kindling when I decide to light the world on fire?
     
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  3. bobross

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    I'll bring the popcorn! But stay your hand a bit more, there's light left in it still ^^
     
  4. Strength And Light

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    I find myself thinking this quite a bit about @Max Fisher and his venue.:)
     
  5. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    Should we start a gofundme or what?

    He'll have his venue because Max is Max.

    I'll keep checking the mail for the request to be his advertising/event photographer ;)
     
  6. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    Someone told me to pull out my canvas & paint.

    So, I'm going to go do that instead of crying over spilt milk.

     
  7. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    x0+ days fucking handed to me. Somebody else's shitty ass abusive behavior handed a non-addict abstinence with a giant red bow. lolololololol

    Wtf is this life.

    I'm a human, too. Torture.
     
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  8. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    Yes, Mr. Fancy lawyer man, it's going to be a book.
    Your wife will probably want to buy it.

     
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  9. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    Seriously. Are there any honest human beings left in the world, today? Besides me?

    Honesty Island is getting pretty lonely.

    I'm fucking over deception. Ugh.
     
  10. bobross

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    Don't slip into bitterness, too many have done it... :(
     
  11. Have you met my good friend Hank? It sounds like punk rock stomping time...
     
  12. Strength And Light

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    [​IMG]
    (I like to think of this gif as your journal regulars - the good ones anyway)
     
  13. I get to be Bender! Even though I'm probably more like the nerdy one...
     
  14. Strength And Light

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    Deal. You can be Bender if I can be The Professor when we get around to the Gilligan's Island gifs.
     
  15. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    It is most def time for some punk rock stomping. Just dyed my hair green, shaved 'fugazi' on one side & 'econoline' on the other.
    I kid; hipsters would never ride in an econoline. Or, would they??

    This legit made my day. It's so us.

    I've spent a great deal of time in my head trying to figure out who I want to be. Claire, for obvious reasons but also Ally, for obvious reasons. Can I be a hybrid of the two just kinda lurking in the background? Maybe the statue? I can be the undecided statue.

    Not ashamed that I had to Google Gilligan's Island for the characters.

    [​IMG]
     
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  16. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    In a funk because found second hidden recording of me. From 2016. Babycakes were 10 months old. I threw up. Immediately.

    I'm scared, unsure of what else is out there...

    But, I'm the bad guy.

    Mind control.
     
  17. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    Ok. More than a funk. I'm gutted, once again. Feel like all of the hard work I just did has been reset to square 1.

    Why me

    I don't deserve this; I never deserved this
     
  18. TryingHard2Change

    TryingHard2Change Distinguished Fapstronaut

    Sorry...life is not fair, that is for sure.

    What hard work are you referring to -- that is now reset to square 1 ?!?
     
  19. 0111zerozero11

    0111zerozero11 Fapstronaut

    Healing...

    Consisted of/consists of hours upon hours of: research, therapy, self-love, meditation, photography, journaling, self-reflection, 1 million gallons of tears shed while having talks with my inner therapist, etc.

    Blown apart. But, not really. I still feel like I'm worth a shit, I still want to journal, I still want spring to get here so I can photograph, I still sob & grow while doing so, I still do therapy, etc.

    The only thing that makes me feel like I reset to the days before I started healing, is the inability to forgive myself. Every day I find something. Monday's finding made me physically ill, once again.

    How in the fuck was I so blind?

    I just want an answer to this; that I know I'll never get.
     
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