Random Emotion Spikes, Normal?

So i decided to completely stray away from porn and masturbation and so far i'm doing well this time after many relapses. But i find myself all of a sudden freaking out at random times in the day. I freak out if any girls at school were to find out that i watched a lot of fucked up porn during my prime addiction (at my worst). My heart would beat faster and faster and i would completely lose it for a few seconds, getting extremely angry and powerless at the same time. I fear if this addiction wins over me i will never be able to even get a girlfriend, and i would never be able to deal with it. i need some advice.

 

I agree that porn and masturbation is not natural at all, i hate when those buzz feed freaks tell you that "masturbation is completely healthy and natural". I am trying to get back up on my feet. But one thing i realized when i watched a particular video of Mike Tyson, i remember him saying "change comes in time". And i completely agree with him because change does indeed come in time, you can not just change your lifestyle and remove all bad habits from your life in one day, on top of that everybody has the opportunity to change. So i think i should just continue my nofap journey until i am completely out of this addiction and all the crap that comes with it.

 

No worries man thank you! I will keep this thread up in case anyone wants to reply some more.

 

Hey so i noticed that after some research i realized that these emotion spikes are due to something called PAWS which is basically summed up as Pornography withdrawal, since my brain has been so fucked by porn and masturbation it is not used to no porn at all. So i was told that PAWS can cause depressive thoughts, sexual thoughts, low libido/low sex drive and anxiety. How do combat it?

 

I just relapsed and i found that i felt that these emotional spikes went away because i gave myself stimuli. but i still i'm going to restart tomorrow.