Beware of the "MO loophole"!

On my first attempt on NoFap, I made it 49 days hard-mode/monk-mode (No PMO, no MO, no “just one little peak”). It’s been over two years since I started NoFap. I must say, the first attempt was definitely the easiest to do. It took me a TED Talk video to scare the hell out of me and I declared that I was done. I PMO’d from my teens 2x/everyday (early morning AND late night) and I stopped just like that… for the next 49 days that is…

Since that first relapse, it has been extremely difficult to get back to where I was. After a few more relapses, I decided that I needed to M to “take the edge of”. If I was to do this, the following criteria must be met: 1) Absolutely ZERO visuals and 2) it cannot be done more than once a month.

For a while, this actually did help. To be honest, I do not regret doing this. I only regret what it turned into, but I will get to that in a moment. This did help me stay away from P for the longest time (I hit 100 days PMO-free twice). I don’t feel like once a month WITHOUT visuals wrecked my progress. I was gentle, I didn’t use a death grip, etc…

Eventually, once a month became once every 2 weeks. Then once every 2 weeks became once a week. Then once a week became twice in the same weekend. These last two months, it has become 3-4 times a week. I even started using visuals (as in non-nudes, bikinis, lingerie, yoga pants...) I must say, BEWARE of P-subs everybody. Even if it isn’t P videos, photos of eye-candy, including non-nudes can really hurt your progress. If any of you have Instagram, I recommend being cautious of it. Even though they don’t have actual P or nudes, there are just so many triggers there. I am deleting my Instagram app from my phone. I don’t have a set timeline for when I will be back, probably never… but I digress… Using the p-subs opened a door to many unintended consequences. How foolish was I to MO with Instagram (especially accounts of “favorite” p-stars?!!) Of course, by doing this, it only made me want to look for “something more”…

Anyways, I relapsed with PMO last night… so much for MO once a month and no visuals… these last two months my attitude was basically giving myself too many freebies, and I told myself that “tone it down bud!!!”, but I never did. What are the results? I flatlined hard (I know it’s both psychological and physical). My penis is sore and bruised. It shrank into a pathetic size, and it doesn’t wake up. It’s not any different than the old days of PMO 2x/day everyday… I had so many amazing improvements in my erections during NoFap. The “MO loophole” didn’t hurt at first when I was doing once a month WITHOUT visuals, but now it turned into something that killed a lot of progress.

I am left with no option. It’s time I go hard-mode (aka monkmode). No more touch (except to wash/pee lol). No more “just one little peak”. No Instagram. I am going to change my counter from “Days without P” to “Days without P, M, O” because that is what really counts! Shooting for 30 days without PMO and without MO starts right now!

I want to know what everyone else thinks. What have your experiences been with the “MO loophole”? There has been a lot of debate about whether a “once in a while” MO is okay. I have my ideas… All I know is that right now, hardmode is the only way that is right for me. If I was to be honest, I do believe the “MO loophole” helped at first. It did “ween” me off from the explicit/hardcore videos that I was binging on for 2x/everyday (early morning AND late night). It DID take the edge of. The problem is that I let it spiral way out of control and this is the result: flatline, low arousal level, weak and pathetic erections, and RELAPSE!

Anyone who is going with the “MO loophole”, I beg of you… PLEASE PROCEED WITH CAUTION!

 

This was during one of my PMO-free and MO-free streaks, and I believe I was in the Day 30 range. I was browsing a dating site, and there was some eye-candy (non-nudes, but still...) Out of nowhere, I didn't even touch, but yup, I made a "big mess"... From that day on, I felt that maybe I should just let some out just to relieve the pressure (in more ways than one). It did help for a little while, not gonna lie. I really am not entirely against the "MO loophole". I know (and I understand) why people are encouraging monkmode/hardmode. I don't want this to turn into an argument, but I do want to hear everyone's thoughts.

I don't regret trying the "MO loophole", but I am disappointed how I lost control of it, and came so close to slipping back into my old ways of PMO 2x/day everyday...

Thank you all for the responses!