relapse after 119 days hardmode

hi fapstronauts,

my nofap-results till now:

first try 105 days hardmode
second try 119 days hardmode

now i started the third journey: 90 days hardmode.

i am not really distracted. relapsing is a part of this process.

dont binge when you relapse. stand up and start again!

my second relapse was insane. i just looked at some nude pics (no porn pics) and i had an orgasm without touching littleotto. right - orgasm only with brainpower. never thought that something like this is possible. DAMN i was a guy who was watching the hardest stuff for several hours every day!

so i started the third journey. with every journey i get more aware of this shitty addiction. i can see clearly the harm it did to me during all the years (ten years). i can see how it transformed me into a slave of lust and perversion. how i lost control over my emotions. how the strong obsession killed my soul. how my behaviour against women degenerated. i was living like an animal - following my extrem sex drive. that was the only target in my life!

to all fapstronauts in this universe - if you want to live again:

STOP PORN AND MASTURBATION!


the fight goes on.

kind regards.

monkotto

 

@chrushur

right back to chuckmode!

@pursuitfor

"...its no different from an athlete who trains, fails, only to train much harder right after."

exactly! nice comparison.

think like this - how many times you would have masturbated in 72 days normally? while nofap you did not. the problem is when you dont get back to the challenge. when you binge for several days. you relapsed? ok be strong start your new journey right on the next day! without any excuse.

in my case: 105 days + 119 days = 224 days with only 4 orgasms - 3 after the first relapse (with porn) and one after the second relapse (only sexy pics - no porn).

so in my past life i would have had about 400 orgasms and 300 hours porn in 224 days. i think you now what i mean.

i dont count wet dreams. wet dreams are also a part of nofap.

whatever happens dont binge after the relapse.


edit:
i forgot the hookers - i think visiting about 30 hookers in 224 days (in my past life).

 

thanks guys.

@taurean

we have the choice...

watching porn and fapping? yes or no?

visting hookers? yes or no?

no one is holding a gun to our face and forcing us to say yes.

this is all about commanding the own sexual drive! we lost the control - and we want to control it again.

right this is hard - a hard fight and hard work.

 

blocks on the computer. this makes me always smile. in my opinion that is idiocy. you need that block in your head and not in your computer - block on the computer is self-deception.

for me the most important thing is the goal - setting a goal and counting the damn days.

my first goal was 28 days. every time you reach a goal you can extend it.

set yourself a goal and try to reach it at all prices. the urges will be incredible hard - go into a forest and cry. scream into your pillow. curse the whole f***ing day. but be careful that no one can hear you.

good luck.