THE DUELS OF NOFAP: NO PMO TOURNAMENT | OPEN FOR ALL

I'm not gonna lie to you guys, i feel ashamed for doing it that's why I didn't wanna come on here until holiday ends but I fucking relapsed 3 days in a row like I need this I think

 

So I'm gonna sort it all out and then go to sleep, I m'd because I'm lonely tbh but it doesn't even matter as long as I, we keep trying to end this

 

I'm probably not even that alone ik, it's just my stupid brain thinks I am so I'm reacting to that.. probably sounds crazy but idk i wish it would just deal w losing a friend I had for so long in the worst way

 

nah you beat me by a few hours and won the duel

 

there's just triggers everywhere, everything is shit but this but I don't want to stop trying and I won't because I feel awful right now, the worst part is I really thought it was over and then out of nowhere it just fucks me over

 

I relapsed in france over porn but I don't really remember it or why so I'm pretty sure that was just an error otherwise I would, okay so I'll tell you what happened wednesday night coz it was quite weird, my flight got delayed like an hour and there was this girl and she kept checking me out and obviously I noticed that and my confidence was quite high coz of it, a lot of people have said I looked good in the past but idk my confidence has always been high but in terms of looks I think I'm pretty ugly. Anyways not the point coz I don't gaf about looks and I care more about other values more. Inevitably we got talking and it turned out she only spoke french and I only speak English but a little bit of french but I understand it mostly so that was funny and it was just a good flight I thought idk, so I got her snapchat coz she seemed really nice but then when I got to the hotel for some weird reason I just felt so lonely, and empty like maybe I'm just crazy to feel that way, I don't really miss my ex even though 6 years is in a week, maybe I miss being w her but I gave it up for better shit and to properly quit PMO. I just relapsed AGAIN like an hr ago and since then this feeling of loneliness has carried over for the last 3 days and SEVERE brainfog so I'm going to all these great places and struggling to enjoy it.

 

I think i needed a weird rant but yeah let me get to sorting this out

 

maybe it's just me who noticed it aswell but +5 warriors all knocked out in 2-3 days. Clearly PMO is trying to play us at our own game and we need to fight back harder and if you don't stand up and start working towards achieving no P&M forever again, you are a coward...no one said this is gonna be easy so dig deep and jjust fucking fight