Rejected... Relapsed.

So there I was...12 days clean... at the top of the world. Asked out a crush to prom, everything went great, even bought condoms since I was thinking about going back to her place. She calls me a couple of hours later (original plan was for her to call me, we go out and chill) and tells me she's happy with everything I did and is still going to prom with me... But lets me know that this is only a friend relationship (in a completely nice way) to prevent me from getting hurt. This hit me hard... I haven't faced rejection this bad in a while... I wasn't ready. I finally exposed my feelings again and was rejected once again. So I found the most reasonable way to get over it was to relapse. I'm a 19 decent looking guy and very talented (play sax and do acting). I was bullied as a kid and because of this I have low self confidence. I find porn as a drug to make me forget about all of this and rejection. I've gone from the top of the world back to the pits of hell. I need help and advice. I feel as if I'll never find a girl. Help me. I don't want to keep going back to porn.

 

Thanks to all of you. For reminding me that life does have it moments of darkness... But I've got to get through them and become the man girls can't get enough of. I shouldn't have relapsed but as they say... "You learn from your mistakes" I will take what I've been able to learn from this relapse and will use it to make the right move next time rejection strikes in my life. Thanks!