Numb genitals - very depressed

I used to watch porn but no longer. I made a more than 10months reboot (only few masturbations/ejaculations : 1 or 2 in 10 months !!!)

 

With no success...

 

No Anonymous... Still the same

 

- No SSRI ("spaces"), never
- No amelioration since my last post ("hunter")
- Impossible not to sexualy fantasize during 1 entire year ("ultrafabber")...

My feeling is that something is wrong with my pelvic floor muscles.
My penis is always numb, and testicles always numb and high. And scrotum tight. Testicles feel like they don't hang properly. Like if a spasm was always constrincting all genital area.

My BC muscles feel always flat and empty. And when i kegel, no blood comes in the penis like before. And when i ejaculate, there is no strength, the flow is very weak.

I don't understand what happened when i masturbated 2 times in a raw this fucking day. I'm lost.

 

No medication at all Oak65... I already saw the forums you mention, but nothing related to medication in my case.

My issue began when i was 22yo. The context was many masturbations every day, even without desire, just to do it, ejaculate and feel good. I was a very anxious young man, and masturbating was a way to reduce anxiety. I was drinking and smoking a lot at this period of my life. One day i noticed reduced feelings in my penis and glans, as if it was disconnected from the body. I freaked out and stopped masturbation during few weeks. One day, feelings came back and i masturbated twice because i was so happy... But just after the second ejaculation, i felt something was wrong : the penis was very small, no more sensitive, no more spongy, hardflaccidlike, and my testicles were still high positionned, they didnt return in a normal hanging position. As if a muscle responsible of testicle ascencion and penil rigidity was always and chronically overworking... As if i was stucked in post ejaculation recovery loop... Strange i know...

My question is :
- Do you think that an overworking (badly) pelvic muscle could produce such symptoms ? Why would it be chronic and present for so many years (18 !!!!)

- Would it be possible that very high chronic anxiety and chronic panic syndrom (and maybe depression) could induce such symptoms ???

I am in a fucking dead end and i don't even understand why !!!!!!

 

I had :
- hormonal tests => OK
- neurological tests (to test the nerves response in the region) => OK
- vascular tests (to induce an erection and see the results) => No erection but no precise conclusions. Could be due to stress...
- echodoppler of penis and testicles => no scar tissues in ne penis, normal tissues. Right testicle rising up spontaneously in inguinal canal, but no more infos from doc.......

I feel forsaken by doc.