has my conscious been minipulated by porn ?

Yes. Many people have the same problem. You have porn induced fetish. After proper reboot(no PMO for 90 days) it should fade away. Nothing to worry about, friend. It's "normal" for some people addicted to porn.

 

Your brain cannot tell the difference between porn and real sex. So if you are masturbating to that your brain will start to respond more and more to it. Porn can morph your taste for a bit. Bring you to some very strange places that you would never find attractive. And in reality it is the seeking that truly get us and is huge in becoming an addict. That seeking thing is called dopamine. Dopamine is the thing that tells us that the end will be great, watch this video because the end will be awesome. It is also what gets us to that disappointment at the end because it is not awesome. Abstain from porn and work on yourself in other ways, like hobbies, and your brain will rewire itself.

 

This is again another classic case of escalation...your brains needs more extreme porn to get the same hi I have been their. What you need is a reboot 90 days start today my friend education is key in fighting this demon lean about what porn dose to your brain