[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 4/90!

 

3/90

 

Day 3/90 Successful.

 

Day 19 of 90
July 31, 2019 | Wednesday

 

Day 27/90 checking in

 

Started Challenge on Jan 25, 2019
Day 181/186 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102, 150, 162)
Day 84/90 meeting my goals
Day 50 of weight training
- no weight training so far this week since I am away for a medical appointment
- I had my first drink in over 6 months since my abstenance experiment for my prostate is done
- though not drinking helped a lot, I will do the same as caffeine now and just have a drink now and then when the occasion rises....like my son's 19th birthday in 2 weeks
- feel good about those 2 decisions now and PMO being more in my rear view mirror now than it ever has been
- have a great day, fellas

 

Right, time to stop fucking about!
I have managed the 3 day and 7 day challenges a few times now, but fail to go on any longer. It was only 9 days ago that I managed 13 days, which was my longest since February! Since then I have fallen into really bad ways and have been binging harder than I have for months!

Today I have been giving myself a bit of a talking to. Time to take this shit seriously! Do I want my life back or not?! 90 days is the magical number that we are all aspiring to. I realise that it may take longer to reset, but at least by then I will have a good idea of where I am at. The others are just false goals. I am now committing to the long haul.

I managed to give up alcohol (mostly) for 6 months pretty easily, so why can't I do this? I will also be getting back on the no booze train, to give myself the best chance all around, and generally feel much better about life.

So, without further ado, I begin. Day 1 of 90 (and a new life!).

 

don´t feed those thoughts. if you´re distracted it´s not your fault, but when you´re aware of those thoughts, you can choose not to feed them, not to engage in them and they will dissolve on it´s own. this is very important, if you continue to engage in that kind of thinking the urges will grow. plus subconsciously you´re giving permission to lust, you´re saying OK to lust. that´s the wrong mindset bro. check your attitude, ASAP.

 

awesome bro!!! keep going

 

i´m right behind you bro, let´s do this!!!

 

welcome bro and good luck!!!

 

i hope all brothers are going well. let´s keep going my brothers, only perseverance will get us there.

today marks 1/3 of my journey . i´m feeling so much difference from the "old days".

-more energy: i can work and hobby the entire day without getting dead tired quickly.
- more confidence: i can talk to people very straight foward, i feel a deep empathy towards others.
- more aware: i´m more alert than before, things are looking more alive, music is better, books are better, movies are better, everything seems more alive.
-more peace: i feel a peace within me, it´s hard to get me out of balance now.
-more atractive to girls: girls are stocking me with their eyes, even girls that couln´t stand me before . on the other day a girl almost bump into me in the street because she was staring so much
-better facial expression: my face looks a lot better, more colorful than before. much better than the scared pale face and dry lips of the addiction days. now i understand something a friend of mine told me 20 years ago in highschool (about the time when i became a regular fapper) "man, you look so pale".
-more smarter: i can solve things with much more efficieny, i almost sense things before they happen.
-almost no social anxiety: in fact i´m feeling a strange link towards womans, a kind of intimicy now, wow.
-very good sleep

Onwards to the next 30 days . let´s do this brothers, towards freedom!!!

 

im in (1/90)

 

Day 56/90

 

5 days without an accident

 

5/90 in the books!!

 

Day of 32.

 

Day 3

 

Day 4/90 Checking in. Never give up.

 

Been a while since inactivity here, the inactivity period made me complacent about it, it made me believe it's quite normal and I fucked up again, started to fap two times a week. Did some self realisation yesterday, felt the urge to come back and I'm back. Wish me good luck.