Joining the party

What’s up guys, I’m 27 and I’ve just started my NoFap journey in a committed way after many years of excuses and false starts. I’ve reached the point where I’m willing to accept that this is a problem that won’t be solved through shear willpower and grit alone, one that I need to reach out for help with. So here I am.


I’ve just relapsed from my first week of intentionally abstaining from PMO. I’ve been on a trip with my family and the family tension from being in close proximity all week coupled with my own anxiety finally got the best of me. It was a humbling experience to realize how much I’ve relied on PMO to keep me stable, or at least comfortably numb, in the past.


I realize now that it’s not as if PMO completely got rid of my anxiety, it just offered me a fantasy to escape to, a way to tune the world out for a little bit and blow of enough steam to drag myself out of bed, show up withdrawn and flaccid, and just go through the motions. But the heavy cost has been massive regret and I’ve finally surrendered to the fact that I’ve hit my limit for living such a small, provisional life.


So I’m in this for real now. This is the work, one day at a time. Thanks for accepting me into your community. I hope to get to know all you guys better and learn some things, find some support, and help some others that are in the same predicament as myself. Even though I’m back to day one, I’m just glad I’ve found somewhere that feels like we’re all in this together. It’s good to finally be here.