Well that was interesting

So after 7 days of no fapping or porn I watched porn and fapped but it didn't go down the way it used to. You see, I've read these stories about how some people discovered that porn was never needed, it was the masturbation they craved and well I wanted to see how it would go for me. Yes, I voluntarily seeked out porn (just one clip) and what I found was I had no erection but I still fapped and...ya know, but the thing is, I didn't feel anything. Usually I'd feel relief, and an uncontrollable desire to return but no, the porn felt foreign to me, like it didn't feel the same way it used to. It felt...uninteresting. The excitement, the unbreakable(and somewhat terrifying) focus on the porn, the pleasure or relief, it was all gone. What's even weirder is that last week, I "tripped," I masturbated just for the sake of masturbating and the weird thing is, what I felt then is what I should have felt when I watched that porn vid. I don't know if this is normal, maybe this is a screw up, or something is broken within me. Maybe it's dopamine I'm craving or sexual pleasure even. Please leave your thoughts down below and don't beat around the bush, if I screwed up than tell me I screwed up.

 

Yes, I too would like to make the rest of 2019 without it , I need to quit porn and masturbation all together. I definitely think today's discovery was an eye opener. Until now I always thought that porn was guaranteed masturbation but now, now I see that is not the case. I know I'm no where near out of the woods but I think I'm making my way out, and I'm interested to see what lies ahead after this unexpected revelation.