why I haven't relapsed for 1 year > my "secret"

when some guys find out about the longevity of my NoFap, they ask me what's my secret and what to do once you get really horny. my secret is the following...

unconsciously, i was on NoFap. then I started watching porn in high school. it was because a friend of mine convinced me that fapping "is good. otherwise, your cum just sits there." so then i went wild experimenting with all sorts of porn, regular, fbbs, bbws, interracial, etc.. then my porn fetishes got worse and worse and before i knew it, regular irl girls didn't even turn me on. i needed hardcore porn models with plastic surgeries or weird shit to do anything for me.

15 years later, i became bored with sex and my sex drive has hit an all time low. it got to a point that whenever i wanted to release, it wasn't because i was horny. but it was because i felt the need due to a program running in my brain of wanting to feel good, and that it's "good" for me to release my semen. i was so conditioned, i felt like a dope fiend looking for his next hit. and if i didn't get it, i felt depressed or sad. my irl probs of not getting women and having almost no social skills was the reason why i need this "hit".

so, what is my "secret"? after all this time, it got to a point where NO PORN did it for me. my biggest and most exciting fetish became void. i felt empty and each time i came felt nothing less then liquid dripping down my dick. there was 0 pleasure, and i felt like i was robbed off my manhood. this brought me to a stage where i felt suicidal and like kms. it was the worst feeling in the world. i could not even enjoy myself looking at a woman of any kind that once gave me a sexual rush or enjoyment sexually. because in my pants, i felt nothing. it was like having a dead stick dangling between your legs. and this stick needed some sort of pornography in order to get around a 60% of erection. even then, i'd have to force it myself. because my dick would not go up on his own.

now each time i get horny and feel the need to have sex, even without having a partner as i never had any sort of a relationship with the opposite sex, i get high on the sexual feeling. it's like a form of meditation. i do exercise regularly that calms me down. but at some point, horniness goes away and i'm back to feeling calm and relaxed. and that is 100% better than feeling dead and empty. i guess if i didn't go through this, i would not have gone this far. i'm still going and i hope i don't give in one day when life becomes even harder.

 

I do, but it's hard af. some days i wanna give up because how hard it is for me to talk to women, form a connection, and ask them out. soulmate sounds like a good idea, but i just wanna get good at getting dates and be good with women. finding a soulmate is another comfy pill that will let you be in your comfort zone until it's over. then i'll be in the same boat again looking for a partner.

 

that's how porn works, and that is why it's so damaging to men who consume it regularly. regular stuff becomes boring, so you need to go to more extreme lengths to satisfy your newly developed fetishes.