[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

9/90

 

22
I fapped for 5400 days
Every time i remember that
I know how precious the price i"ve to pay back. How huge my debt. I"m grateful that i still have penny even if for peeing only

 

Even if i replaced and masturbated 5 times during 21 days comparing to 2-3 masturbation per day!!! before starting NOFAP, I feel HUGE stamina.
Before NOFAP, max 10min gym and stop. Now, each day i can run 40min tredmill and stop because i felt boring not because i was tired + 30 min body building.
I don’t know what i can do when I will stop M forever.
I LOVE NOFAP.
I WILL DO IT, I lost some rounds but i will not loose the war.
On route again no PMO.
When I relapsed, next day will be hell in gym.

 

That" it
U got the point
It"s not matter of life or death
U "ve to be flexible
Go on dude
Never surrender

 

That's almost 15 years of fapping if you did it daily for 5400 days. That is a crazy amount if it is true.

 

3/90 done!

 

Day 8! Mixed feelings!

 

Day 6

 

Today is day 0/90

 

Not daily but some days i reached 7 times
Miserable life
Shameful memories
As i said I will pay back
Every cent
I accept vibrating between flatlines to PIED TO PE TO ED
I DESERVE THEM ALL TOGETHER
BUT WILL NEVER EVER TOUCH IT WITH MY FINGERS AGAIN
IF I HAD TO CUT THEM
NOBODY DIES HORNY

 

47/90

 

5 days done. Started to wander earlier, but luckily got interrupted by friends messaging, and then met up with others. Not thought about it since!

 

Sad to say I relapse guys 0/90

 

Its ok man! You can do this. You don't have to give up.

 

69/90

 

Day 2

 

Day 4 /90
Going strong

 

Day 7/90 Checking in.
You are limitless. Remember.

 

0 days no PMO. Had an 11 day streak.
0 days no junk food
2 days no alcohol. 1 14 day and one 12 day streak. 1 9 day streak.
66 days no posts on Facebook.
Prayed my chaplet of Divine Mercy.
Prayed my litanies.
Daily consecration
Czestochowa prayer card.
Talks with God and Mary.

Totally relapsed by now. You know what?! I am totally ok with that. This is one hell of a grace, but I am not bothered by it one bit this time. I am just going to keep chuggingalong. I got this. I am not a bad person. I have fallen into a trap. I can get out of it. I have been bruised and broken by it but I don't feel broken andbruised anymore. I am way more emotionally healthythese days and I keep gettinghealthier all the time. I will get past this. I will get past this and move into a life that God has dreamed for me for all eternity. Since my last 11 day streak I have been connecting with people. It is so beautiful. People are so beautiful. I had so much fun at choir rehearsal. I am developing feelings for people. I will make more great streaks. Maybe I won't act out again. Each time I go a long streak or if I never act out I will connect with people more and feel like what it is to be a human being. I am going away up north and am not bringing my computer. I will get a great streak there foresure. I will heal a bunch more. I am going to keep healing more and more like I have been for the last 10 years. I have high hopes. This addiction can't bring me down. I am not a failure! I am not a loser! I am a child of the most high. I will get past this!

 

Day 2 / 90