Day 24 / 90 Full and permanent PMO recovery requires spiritul growth. Find out what that means to you and pursue it rigorously.
On day 41, but only with porn. I have been doing M and O. I know it's against the rules of the challenge, but I have been struggling to complete this challenge for YEARS. I have decided to make this change to help myself get over this hurdle. I know that cutting porn out of my life will help cure my ED and begin to help me limit my urges to masturbate and instead seek out real women. Feeling thankful for this challenge for helping me get through this
Good for you! I am the same, I have been struggling to cut porn out for years, it's sadly way harder than it would seem. I also feel like it has taken a lot of pleasure out of my life. Stay strong, find tools to help yourself and think of what your future can be. You've got this
You feel self-respect. You don't play a victim role. You're comfortable about not being perfect. You're not afraid of others' negative thoughts or opinions. And, you say life is shit? It may not be as bad as that. You are ahead of the game with some very enlightened qualities. Yes, there are setbacks and suffering, but life is good, isn't it really?
0 days nofap. Been a long time since I posted in here. I need to get back in the habit of posting here. It is helpful. I mentioned in my last post that I was going to hire a pro cuddler. I hired one and she was rather rude to me. I did enjoy the snuggles though. I did find some healing. I decided against hiring her again. I found another one. We got together today. It was a very healing experience for me. I just wanted to share something about it. We connected very quickly and she was not shy. She used to be a prostitute. She was telling me about her PTSD from it and some of the damage it did to her. The women in those porn videos and pictures I have watched have been traumatised and damaged too. Just like the friend I made earlier today. I could tell that she was so relieved that she was with a guy who did not just want to have sex with her. She is a massage therapy student. Even when I do find and romantic relationship I can continue to be her friend. Never in my life have I seen so clearly God's providence at work. I used to fantasize so deeply about prostitutes. Here I was laying with one, not to have sex with but to connect on a very deep human level. I can't even explain this all and all its complexities. God is blessing me and her. I can make my amends to an ex prostitute for all the damage I was part of making on all those women in porn. I can't believe how good God is. Never in my life have I seen such a blessing.
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Thank you for sharing. I wish for your full recovery and healing. The future you want is in your hands.