[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

day 2/90

 

day 18/90

 

Ok so I made it through most tempting day. I stayed productively busy and things went smoothly. Today I’ll be running errand and out and about so I’m hoping for another smooth day. How’s everyone else doing?

 

Joined nofap Jan 25, 2019
253/275 Good Days (no relapse)
Longest streaks 67 then 51 ( 4 years later)
Current Challenge 1/90 (ends Jan 25, 2020 my 1 year anniversary of joining nofap)
Day 85 weight training (3X/wk)
Day 25 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar
- feeling good as this time around I am adding no O to the attempt in order to stop fantasizing about porn when I fuck my wife
- this keeps the old porn neural pathways alive and I need them to be rerouted to being aroused by humans again, not pixils on a screen
- such an insidious addiction when you think about how it controls your life like hard drugs do
- Gary at ybop said that a heroine addict told him that getting high on hard drugs is just like an orgasm going off in your brain when you do a hit
- porn and street drugs do the same thing to our brains to get us hooked but with porn our reward system is being used against us since sex and desire is natural....high speed internet porn is not though
- I've been a junkie then for 43 years
- your brother in this struggle

 

Day 14/90
Really happy that I made it to 2 weeks
I need to make sure that I am strong enough to win the demon inside me when next time the urges come.
My goal is no PMO for 90 days that I have not made it since I am into this porn addiction.
Stay clear in mind that the goal has not achieved yet, I am still in the beginning.

A short brief of my nofap journey.
I have been watching porn for many years.
1 year ago I tried and failed many times and gave up on even trying on NoFap. I always felt shameful and guilt when I pmo, but I could not get out from it, maybe I could make it for few days because of too busy, but once I'm free, I went back to it.
I restarted this noFap journey from May 2019, but I only made it to 70+ days then relapsed.
Then starts again and made it to day 44 and relapsed.
Then starts again and made it to day 38 and relapsed. But this was a big relapsed as I relapsed for three days that I felt that I am not enough with just that, I want more of it.
Then I made a decision, do I want to succeed or I want to fail in my life? I realize how dumb I was that I lost to the urges. Then again slowly I climbed up from that abyss, I want to climb to the top of the mountain. I want to have control over my life, not lose to the demons.
Reset again.
And now here I am, I want to remove this bad habit from my life for good.

I did write a journal for every time something happens that is related to pmo. And I encourage each one of you to do so, so you could have a clearer mind of what was the mistakes, and how to overcome it.

All the best brothers!

 

Day 2

 

Thanks for writing this as my journey has been the same. It seems harder each time I loose a streak to get back to the higher numbers in my streaks at the beginning of the nofap journey. I have yet to get close to the 67 days I got to on my first attempt over 4 years ago. I think we slowly loose our will power, determination, resolve and self esteem each time we relapse. We come back to it from a weaker place, so it seems, but luckily a wiser place as we learn what our triggers are and how to handle them. Have a great pmo free Sunday, brother!

 

Day 17/90 completed successfully

Your brother in this struggle

 

welcome brother!!! let´s go

 

feeling good bro. even better knowing that you overcome a difficult day . let´s go my brother, we´re with you!!!

 

come on bro, you have the willpower you know the tools, you know the strategy. let´s go!!!!

 

Third attempt 13/90

 

that´s a great streak history bro. lot´s of days in abstinence .

i joined nofap 5 years ago!!! then i realize nofap was really hard (it´s not but that´s what i thought at that time) and i leave the forum. and because i´m stubborn as a donkey, i wasted 2 years of my life trying to fit porn in my life, trying to use it under control. i try all kinds of methods, day systems etc, i failed over and over again. then one day it dawn on me that i was a true addicted and i could never control pmo usage.
i surrender to that fact then start nofap again. so you see that you have done way better than me , from the beginning you saw that this shit is poison and you want to break free no matter what. amazing

let´s go bro, much love!!!

 

39 days my brothers, lot´s of urges today but i´m standing tall, no peaking. let´s go my friends, one day at a time, just this day.

 

Thanks again RisetoGreatness

 

73/5400
I can handle more stress face to face
Simply
I"m returning to be a MAN not just a male.........

 

Thanx bro
15 yrs of HELL
i want to wash my sins
To return to 1st day when i started that shit
That"s my Aim
I hope to be able to pay back my debt...
I hope
.....

 

Hi! I'm joining in on this one!

 

Wow, you are on fire! 39 days is nothing to balk at! Keep going, bro! You can easily make 90 days. Have you made it there before? I haven't after 4 years of trying but this time is different. I feel success is immanent. As you said, no peaking is the key, as it's a slippery slope back to PMO.

 

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