What's wrong with me PLEASE!

Hi All,

I just discovered this community and i thought that you can help me. I started masturbating since i was 12 years old. I wasn't so addicted to porn but for years i kept masturbating everyday and i even stopped having wet dreams at all. 3 years ago i had a moment with a girl and she wanted to give me a blowjob. I felt the pleasure but never managed to ejaculate i felt like i need to rub my penis with my hand to do so. I kept wondering for a long time why didn't i ejaculate while blowjob should be the best thing ever for a man. Years passed and i forgot about this and kept masturbating everyday and i used to train myself for years not to cum fast in order to feel the pleasure more. 2 months ago i met a girl and she tried to give me blowjob twice and i wasn't able to ejaculate as well. This really frustrated me so i read about it and found out from what i've read that my brain might be got used to the hard pressure on my penis in order to cum and that a real life sex with a partner is not good enough for me to ejaculate. I got scared and now i stopped masturbating for over a month now.. i thought that long time no masturbating my brain will be back to normal but yesterday we tried again and she gave me a blowjob and i couldn't ejaculate! This is really scaring me now! How long will it take for my body to be back sensitive again and enjoy a real life sex things? Is there a hope for my body to heal after years of masturbating? What should i do to feel like normal people again? I never had any depression stuff or bad thoughts.. this is my only and biggest fear!

PLEASE HELP IF U HAVE EXPERIENCE

 

I don't know why is it like this! I was driving my car during the blowjob. Do you think is it related? But it doesn't feel like it's related. I'm just worried that i lost sensitivity in my penis because of masturbating roughly for yearsss. Do you think it's permanent?

 

Okay i understand your concerns ofcourse and i'm not doing that again. Yet i have no idea why i don't cum