over 90+ days. Libido observations

I have not posted here much lately. But I wanted to share some observations about my Libido.

When I fapped, I at least had a libido and could still perform sexually.

When I finally cut out porn for good. It's like my libido was still there but slowly but surely tapered off.

Around day 60 my libido was dead, but I met a girl and my libido came back to life. This returned libido lasted about 15-20 days and we were having sex regularly.

From about day 75 I noticed my libido had TANKED again! Those 15 or so days having great sex had sent me into another flatline. Which has been getting progressively worse until now at day 93 where it's almost 0 interest in sex.

Worse still, i had a few urges to return to porn recently. I think my brain is trying to trick me into kickstarting my libido artificially.

For those that have gone considerable time on nofap what has your flatline experience been like. Did it come and go in waves ?

 

I think masturbating would make it worse for me, but I'd rather not test that theory. My whole purpose of nofap is to regain control over my life. But everyone's different I suppose.

I just want my damn teenage libido back.