I need help

Hi. I discovered nofap a few months ago. I wanted to do nofap to gain more confidence, more motivation ,to get rid of my fetishes and to actually enjoy something in my life. I have severe inferiority complex all my life and I have social anxiety to the point where I couldn't even talk to people like cashiers in the supermarket and stuff. They were caused by terrible people whom I had met early in my life. I want to talk about this fetish. It was caused by how bad I am at socialising. I have nearly no friends and have not talked to a female for like 6 years. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of everything. I absolutely done. Done. Done. I'm going to make a change through nofap.
The problem is , before I discovered nofap, I multiple times tried to stop fapping but It made me very unmotivated and tired and anxious (always immediately after I stopped fapping. Could this be a flatline or just me? Am I a abnormally?)and eventually I gave up and ended up fappign like crazy. I know the benefits of nofap I had experienced them myself as I did not masturbate for like 5 days due to sickness. I felt like an entirely new person and went to search the internet to find out about nofap. The thing is, I really cannot afford to be tired, unmotivated and anxious as my exams are in like 11 months. Should I start nofap after the exams? I'm in a dilemma right now. If I do start now, how to i not feel terrible? Jogging would not be possible as I an scared to be outside. Music works but not that much and sugar only makes me feel happy for 2 hours. It took a lot of courage for me to write this as I had never posted anything to the internet before. Sorry if you have a hard time reading English is not my first language.

 

Maybe I will try one month first to see if nofap will work and that it will get better after it.Thank you for replying you have given me hope.