I hate being gay

Question yourself, are you truly gay, or do those fantasies exist just for a jolt of dopamine? Do you clearly identify with those thoughts? Or are those thoughts just thoughts? If not, stop identifying with them, and focus on rewriting your subconscious.

 

Yes... to much porn probablly...
Probablly you have your subconscious full with this stuff for watching so many porn and your brain is conditioning.
Probablly you need a good reboot and a good time to you stabilize.
Just relax and try to free yourself from this stuff for a few time.

 

You have already had this answered...

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I have the same pro elm it sucks

 

Nighttime is always the worst, whether it's a cold or an anxiety.
Can you find something to take your mind off it for a while? Something that (sometimes) works for me is to get comfortable in bed, and then concentrate on counting down from 100, once for each time I breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out, 100. Breathe in, breathe out, 99. Breathe in, breathe out, 98. Breathe in, breathe out, 97. And so on. Sometimes, I'll fall asleep before I reach 60! It's worth trying.

 

At first i wrote something to make you calmer but as i've read it is not ok to provide suche information to person suffering from intrusive thoughts.

So i will just say that i never progressed to homosexual porn but was very interested in transexuals, femdom and little bit of sissy. Now im doing my third week of no PMO and i feel like my fantasies are being nicer to me and they become milder in content. It goes like this:
homosexual fantasies->very dominant woman->caring but still dominant woman->very romantic and accepting intercourse with a girl.

Give it 90 days. Then check what you truly want.

 

This is a phase everyone's mind goes through. sometimes early stages of their life and sometimes later. You'll get over this. They are just feelings. dont stress out because of it.

 

That is a good way of putting it. The same is true of thoughts: Thoughts aren't real, so you don't have to obey them.

 

Can you explain to me what is wrong with having gay thoughts, gay arousal, or fantasies of submission?

 

If you're gay, there's nothing at all wrong with these — except the submission, but only if it's a result of a fetish rather than your natural nature.

But if you have those thoughts when you're straight, and you have them as a fetish through porn addiction, it is confusing, unpleasant, worrying.

It would be interesting to know if any gay people end up with a straight fetish through porn addiction?

 

I have read of cases on yourbrainonporn.com

 

Me me me! I confess. I was hooked on straight porn and even visited a female prostitute. But I never freaked out about it or worried. What I am worried about is me being an addict.

 

Thanks for letting me know! How did your visit to the female prostitute make you feel?

Your attitude is a good one. I see that you're halfway through a 90-day reboot. How is the reboot so far affecting you? Are you starting to find that your straight fetish is diminishing yet?

 

Hm ... how did the visit to fem prost make me feel? I could feed the hungry ghost. It was a kick. Unusual. An adventure. Unfamiliar territory. Which is seldom after decades of acting out. All in all: good and empty. The same.

My straight fetish diminishing? Never saw it really as a straight fetish I think. Watched two or more people screwing. Heroin or cocaine? Fem or male? Hard to say for an addict.
The title of the thread shows what it means to be socially drilled. It should say: I hate being an addict. IMO.

 

So true! Social acceptance of homosexuality plummeted after Roman times thanks to hard-line Christianity and Islam. Homosexuality used to be considered normal in Roman and Ancient Greek times, and probably always before then, too. Thankfully, it's again becoming accepted, at least in the so-called free world.