Accountability for All

Some good stories on this thread, you only really see the classic representation of (mainly men's) relationship with porn, it's good to see that this just isn't true. Day Three done

 

Hey guys the name’s james and i’m 17 and most of my life I did what any normal teenager would do PMO for years. And then i found nofap. i’ll keep it short. For the past 2 years i’ve been battling it out with my urges and relapsed on day 50,60,80 you name it and eventually i’ve finally made it to day 90 which was yesterday but i felt nothing, i mean i thought this would’ve did something and i just felt nothing and yeah i know it takes progress and all the other stuff and you guessed it i relapsed on the day after the complete 90 streak, but streak had wet dreams and fantasies. So i don’t really consider it complete 90 streak. The reason i want to do NoFap is to improve any aspects of my life and PMO has been a major obstacle of it, so like what i said i relapsed today and i feel like shit but and gonna do it again and this time with no wet dreams and completely clean, but for now honestly i don’t know what to do anymore.

 

But wet dreams don't do anything negative.You only reinforce your bad habit if you do it consciously.It seems that you used wet dreams as an excuse.Also don't expect your life to get amazing by doing just 90 days of Nofap.The goal is to replace PMO with another positive habit.

 

Day 8 complete.

 

Day 15 completed

 

I mean since wet dreams the streak wasn’t that clean and i thought after 90 days it has finally rebooted and i’ve been doing this for years and you really do feel like shit unlike before. My point is why hasn’t anything happened i thought the total reboot was day 90, idk man i’m probably just lacking to do something that’s why i still feel like shit after day 90. Gonna do it again tho cause i need those superpowers.

 

opened porn site and immediately closed it will it be considered as relapse?

 

No. You did the right thing by getting out of there as fast as possible. A relapse would be choosing to continue on that site and entertaining yourself on it.

 

Thanks I wont reset the counter

 

Well day 4 since I quit my adhd meds and I have to say I think I became so dependent on them to function that I became extremely sick. I'm not sure if this is how it is, but I think adderral gives you extra dopamine and when you jump off, your body stops producing its own dopamine. It's like coming off steroids really, and your body just stops producing test, except in this case dopamine.

Efit: Adderral is extremely similar to methamphetamine. In fact it's literally just methamphetamine with a different name so it's legal.

 

Day 35 feeling decent no withdrawal symptoms

 

I just don't want to be entirely dependent on medication to function. I also think it might help acne but it turns out PMO isn't always the sole cause of this. There are tons of causes for that bacteria,hormones,diet, irritated skin, stress, among other things.

Some old flashbacks and memories came up which caused blue balls, but I already see through the facade. Besides Kanye West kicked this addiction and he's pretty much married to a pornstar(not in a literal sense).

 

Day 10 coming to an end. I feel like I’m flatlining a bit. I have social anxiety and a sort of low energy.

I wanted to ask something the best I could.

Throughout this journey I’ve been abstaining completely. But sometimes I feel like my brain makes me take a second look at attractive girls in public.

I’ve never stared long enough to get a boner from any of this. I actually started getting non intentional morning wood alittle bit from days 5-8.

Yesterday I caught myself looking at girls in public here and there for literally split seconds. I try to never stare longer than that.

Do you think that this has caused my flatline? Or do you think my flatline symptoms came and would’ve came anyway (seeing how this is the longest I’ve been without intentional stimulation or pmo in like almost a month.

I know this is a bit all over the place. But I just wanted to know if all that matters is that I’m not pmoing, and looking at stimulating content.

 

Most people will have flatline while on NoFap at some point.And looking at girls in public is not a problem.You just have to push through the withdrawal symptoms.

 

Day Five done,
I am almost worried at how slow the days seem to go by, I never realised how big a part of my life this had become, or maybe I refused to acknowledge it. This journey has been eye opening so far and I feel excited and full of energy as I begin to realise that I can actually do something about my bad mental habits that have been my fallback for soooooo long.
I always used PMO as a pick me up when I felt down, like a pill, not even for the women. Did you guys have a similar experience?

Edit: What's PMO stand for again?