[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

day 1, back on the track. I felt bad, not for relapsing on day 21 but for relapsing after telling you the challenges of my life connected to porn watching. It should have motivated me...

 

Day 65!!! Yess

 

Day 8 of this streak, in which my focus lies on increasing self-love and thus eliminating the need to do PM.
I joined this forum 119 days ago. Of those 119 days, I was 110 days without PM.

 

This is going to be a hard one. But there is no other way. Let´s do this count me in !

 

No man, for you, this is gonna be easy. Believe me, you’ve got this!

 

Day 7 ok.
Going smoothly towards day 8.
Chinese stories of Fap-induced diesases are scary enough to destroy any evil thoughts.

 

Ahhhhh slipped up again! Back to day 0.

Reset my laptop and chose not to put the accountability software back on. It's going on now.

So frustrating but trying not to beat myself up!

 

Day 22 about to end. I have been having random erections. With out any sexual urges. I would just be walking and bomb. I get an erection out of nowhere. But other wise my sexual energy was ok. Didn't have any sexual urges

 

Day 22/90 No PM (ends May 10)
Day 403 attempting this challenge
Day 138 weight training (M, W, F)
Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol

 

Day 2.

Here we go another day.

I ordered sleep phones to isolate outside sounds and to listen to music while falling asleep.

It is supposed to help me and be a better alternative than the ventilator...

I'm trying to do this instead of using strong sleeping pills. But if that shouldn't work.
I'll have to start using sleeping pills. I'm ok with any of these but I always opt first for the healthier solution.

Much blessings to all and keep going strong!

 

day 7/90, cheching in

 

Day 0 this will be the good time

 

Technically my birthday was the day before, but who has a birthday party on sunday?

Day 6

 

17/90 still no wet dreams, I seem to have some semen leakage after urinating time to time now, because no release, still no urges

 

9/30 done no PM.
I'm going to survive this race.

Cheers !

 

Day 0.

Sorry guys, I relapsed again.

I really slided back a lot. It was hard today (yesterday) , because I was again fighting for the cravings to go away this time during the day and before sleep, I was trying to go for a run, for a walk or breathe deep, talk with family, watch netflix and stuff but it just stayed the whole day and I knew it wouldn't let me sleep... and it would be torture to have non-stop cravings.

I'm currently thinking that this is because my determination dropped somehow, and I am not shifting my thought patterns soon enough. So the cravings they just come back, because I keep thinking about sexual things compulsively.

And probably also because I've been having sleep issues. I didn't receive the sleep phones yet...
Hoping to get them later this day. It might solve a big part of the problem, then there is getting back my determination.

The last time before the 21 days, I was determined because I didn't want to continue suffer the consequences and make them get worse.

I'll try to journal again and write down everything after I try to get some sleep.

I also have been running yesterday and today, as the gym is apparently still having some issues. And I will keep running regularly, I am preparing my body for exercise again.

I am really trying guys... if anybody has a suggestion of what I could do to get my mind straight I'd appreciate it. (Even though it might be something I already know, it still helps me when someone tells me, 2 brains is always more efficient than 1 brain)

Much blessings to all.

Keep fighting!

 

Well day 2 ... Over ... Going strong for another day ... Had no issues till now .. but won't let my guard down ... That's when it strikes ... Atb to u guys for another day with PMO

 

Relapsed Day 0

 

Starting from Day 0 Again...

 

Day 10/90