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So i relapsed today, again.
Check: Day 0!

 

Day 6. Still, I will fight on

 

Well, it's 12+ years that i MO to porn or sometimes without it. So now that i'm trying to quit, my brain make some fantasies about what i saw in this years. And it take my vision of a future partner and make thoughts about me, her and a lot of experience that i want to try. I think this are my triggers, perhaps one day i will be able to try what life will give me, but for now i'm stuck here, right? But when i meditate, breath or not, i think about what really matter in this life, or what's the meaning of love, and my conclusions are that i can find a woman which i can trust 100%, will not be afraid to try new stuff as i am not(or not will be, who know) and, never and never, will betray and cheat on me. I think this is the problem for now, the more i meditate and realize all of that and more about life/love the more i'm scary that it can't be real, it doesn't exist in this world. I can't believe in love? Or is just a moment for now or some trick from my brain? Yeah, this shit trigger me every fucking seconds.
And i know a lot of stuff how to meditate, to find inner peace and change my life and be peacefully with my self, but that side of me won't leave me in peace and the Devil wins the Angel, most of time ;(

 

Day 0. Trying to get up and aiming for life free from PMO. I know it's one hell of an aim but it's already been years. I'll give it all, all my efforts this time. Wish me luck brothers.

 

I've been in on 6 days of retention. I will be starting my three days to get in another duel hopefally. I'm out of work and I need to recover.

 

Day 0... hatred and regret...

 

NoFap is always on our minds I think that's one of the reason we relapse. There's a saying " whatever you put your attention on grows". So I think we should get busy in our life that much that we seldom think about PMO.