Accountability for All

Thanks you. If I can do it, so can you

 

Thanks for the reply... Maybe setting a reminder to do it and forming a habit from that? I know I need to do this, as I've been failing for a long time to get my fap habit under control. Plus, coming here can give me a form of responsibility to encourage others.
Anyway... Day two now. Had mild urges but nothing that has really tested my resolve.

 

Day 4

 

Got lots of messages you guys really are the best. Been a couple of days. Still feeling pretty down and out but with you guys I’ll beat this well and good. You guys are the best. Appreciate you all for everything you guys do

 

21 Days, I don't know why but this time seems a lot easier, the last three years week 3 was every time absolutely horrific, but this time I have almost no urges...Maybe it is because I am more aware this time that I am still addicted and reading almost every day something in this forum, in the past I always let my defense down after a few weeks.

The most helpful trick right now:
I am stopping any thought right in the beginning and force myself to think and do something else

 

Day 68

I'm almost as of writing this on day 68. I'm doing well but there's something I want to talk about just to get it off my chest.

I watched a Youtube video today which was almost like a piece of journalism. It was about the rise of Onlyfans. It was really interesting. It showed both sides of the screen. The model and the consumer. The message at the end was that the gap between men and women is becoming wider and wider, this is a symptom of the greater problem. Or you could say this IS the problem. Anyways one of the models is called Nicky. Now, Nicky, I've seen before, she's an adult actress but I haven't seen in her in THAT but from the documentary made by Fight The New Drug which I wholeheartedly support. In the documentary, she was saying how she was free from P and that she can live a normal life with her husband. Fast forward to this Youtube video and turns out she's still at it. So all I can think of is..."HUH??" who's lying? what happened? is this even the same person? I don't know and it's driving me up the wall which is why I'm here writing this.
I would link the video but I don't want to trigger anyone just in case but I've you really want to know then just PM. I promise there's no sexual imagery (I don't think) it's just very in-depth personal accounts with a bit of comedy.

 

Day 3 complete. No real urges thankfully. Everybody stay strong!

 

That’s day three. Tough day today

 

Guys I failed you all, I binged. I went down a darker path, I'm scared and tired and fear what will end up of me in the future, I want off this train and I'm at my wits end.

its past midnight here and I can't sleep, Thank God I'm not a alcoholic bc it would have made things worse.

If there are one of the faith here, please pray for me. It's the only thing keeping me grounded at this point.

 

Its all about keeping at it, there are those dark depressing days, everyone has them and has to deal with them. What ever you do dont stop trying and rember it gets harder before it gets easier. Whenever you feel like relapsing rember why your doing this in the first place.

 

Hi all, I am trying to quit 20 years of fapping. I started at 8yrs rubbing my p against magazines then slowly internet

 

I have reset my counter. I'm imagining how the nice gym trainer would praise me not not fapping. She once went to a bikini competition and told me it was shallow

 

Day 14. I will never let another April go by again. Every April that went by when I fapped was wasted, the rain, the gentle breezes, pink and blue skies, the apple blossoms, the pale green maple buds, the sweet air, the freshly turned earth as the farmer plows his land, the strength of a tall white oak.. all lost to me. Never again. I have indulged my senses to the max this April and am lost in the beauty of the land. Maybe I will see a faery soon.

 

I'm 21. Today is I reseted. I relapsed many times in my life. I started PMO when I was 13. I remember quitting PMO for 6 months when I was 15. Then the girl I used to like rejected me and I got frustrated and then I relapsed.
Every time I said "this is the last time" but I was lying to myself only. Then when I was 19 I quitted P. for 2 years, but I relapsed at M. after the first year. I felt so good anyways. I used to be shy my whole life but now I had an astonishing ammount of women who were interested in me. I was productive, positive, self-confident.

I relapsed P. in December, I remember I felt so bad that I begin watching P. like 3 or 4 times a week. Could't manage the urges and the guilt feelings were destroying me. I felt everything like if I were depressed. The girl I was dating became bored of me and that hurted a lot more, I thought "I'm becoming the same shy boring boy I was in the past". Then I got a job in another city and stopped PMO for 2 months. I remember feeling so good, happy, confident, girls were talking to me again, I could express more love to my family and friends, I was more trust-worthy.

March came and I relapsed... not only reseted but relapsed. Now we are in April, today I relapsed after 6 days without PMO. This is my first time here in "NoFap". I really hope I could like some of you and, like you, win this fight against P. forever.

 

Not stroking my cock over facebook photos. One girl I know praised me for not fapping. Much calmer without the PMO. I'm sure I will have more free time

 

Reminding myself how much girls like me as friends

 

Pretty easy day today I'll take those days. Thats day four