[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 3/90

 

1/90

 

Day 0. And I’m determined to reach day 90.

 

Day 4/90

 

Oh really? Maybe its due to your location

 

Day 7

Had night fall two times one in night and one time when I was sleeping in afternoon .
I am feeling so tired and off .
A feeling of exhaustion is all over my body .

 

Day 3 PM
Day 43 O

 

Day 1 no MO
Day 23 no P

 

It is the number of days I am clean of PMO, not the number of days in lockdown.

 

Day no. 10. Yesterday it was a bit tricky... had some emotional burden I felt really weird as if my brain was trying no to push me towards a P but to kind of slowly change the path of its reasoning. I find it as a 1st spoon of pain that is somewhere deep withing me that I've swallowed. Each spoon is bitter and hard to take but each spoon slowly emptys the pot... a "pain pot". Today tho what great day! had fantastic work out.. trimmed me beard and feel really manly and good! Cheers lads! Stay strong and positive!!

 

Day 14/90 No PM
Day 447 at attempting this challenge
Day 158 weight training (M, W, F)
Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol

Day 15/90 No PM
Day 448 at attempting this challenge
Day 158 weight training (M, W, F)
Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol

Somehow missed yesterday so here it is with today's post. Over the hump of 2 weeks now lads.

 

24

 

Relapsed. Day 0

 

Am on Day 16..staying Hard

 

just relapsed, not proud
i took it for granted, said i was tempted but i also tempted myself afterwards..
(the girl was beautiful but the guy was tarzan, lol even with tarzan.like hair! facepalms)
tmrw it will be 4months of the 25 year-old-me.. messed up too much! i don't like me now, i need to change! don't wanna carry this shame for the rest of my existence
gonna sleep but tmrw wil be officially Day 0

let's fight this good fight "well", mates!

 

hold on Ratson dude and let's head to Day 90!!!!!

 

Just had a relapse as well. Don't be too hard on yourself. It's a fresh start. This journey is not a sprint, recovery is a process. Therefore pat yourself on the back for how far you've come.

 

thanku man! and u're right "recovery is a process" i like that!
have a good day/night where u are

 

Today is day 14. I can smell androgens in my urine. Drive is being restored. Hard to ignore girls these days. Have to fight the urge.

 

Yea i agrre

So so right...
It is a process...one that we must trust.
We must trust the process and not ourselves...at not yet.
I say this because pmo has officially taken over our brain and replace any constructive activity that we would be doing if we didnt have this behavior.
Meaning that it wont be wise to go a few days and trust yourself to continue on that course automatically.
Our brain is now an indisciplined pupil that will indulge in rule breaking if not properly monitored.
Which means we have to trust the process of daily monitoring our actions and forcefully doing activities which we know is constructive until it becomes a habit that the brain automatically thinks of when we have idle time.
Relapse is none of our faults.
We are out of control, and it takes time to gain some level of control.
So no matter what...accept, smile, and then move on.
Nobody said this would be easy.