I need help. Answers? HOCD

So during my last relapse, I was having really bad thoughts of something unpleasant, I know I’m not attracted to it, but my mind makes me think I must do it again to not feel this way and so I have a clean streak. I haven’t been able to get the thoughts out of my head. I know it’s just in my head. But can someone reassure me that relapsing is not the answer? Also, HOCD. I think that’s what I have. Please help me feel the need to not relapse. It makes me feel like I’m attracted to something I’m not by thinking of it.

 

Thanks. Not to sound like I know it all or anything, but I Already have drive and motivation to ditch porn forever.

Ive been at this for more than a year and I’m ready to end this cycle of relapsing and abstaining just to relapse again.

I guess the better question I was asking was, with ocd trying to convince you that you have to give in to something to clean up your mental state. How do you avoid it? Is there any way to stop the ocd?

I’m really not aroused to fap again, it’s a complicated thing with my ocd, but I feel the need to have a clean relapse to have a clean streak. It makes no sense, but it bothers me.

 

same here, thanks for the help. I just don’t think that’s my main problem (of course the addiction is but the ocd is more)


My ocd makes me feel the need to relapse again and again to have “the perfect streak” it’s distressing and it bothers me heavily.

any advice?

 

Yeah man, it’s really bad. I think I’m just going to have to forget about it. It’s insanely hard to deal with this type of ocd.

it’s crazy how the mind can trick you into thinking something is real when you know it’s fake 100%