Accountability for All

Been a few more days since my last post. Urges are getting stronger but trying to keep my focus. This thing messes with you self esteem like nothing else. I hope I can start to regain mine with every passing day. Keep fighting the good fight everyone

 

Day 2 went good. Tomorrow will be the monster tips please

 

Day 9 and feelin' fine. Again studied a lot, finished homework, worked out, laid out in the sun for about 45 minutes, and went for a long walk.

How do you know what tomorrow will bring? If you think a monster is coming, then you'll probably be right. If you think it'll be a great day, it'll probably be great. Attitude is everything.

Also, fuck tomorrow. Be in the present. Here are my tips: "Be Here Now" - Ram Dass. Fill your day with things you know are good for you.

 

Been a few more days since my last post. Urges have continued to increase. Hopefully they will die down soon (on their own). I am kind of still feeling blah but it’s ok. I guess it’s just part of the process. Patience is key. Have a good day everyone

 

Day 3 went well.Its beean while since completed 3 full days

 

Ok today not fapping anymore. I had a big urge fapping over some beach volleyball girls. The fapping is a bit porn like.

 

Today I will do the following.

Badminton
Go for walks
Kegel excersizes
Cooking.
Contact train for refund

 

And go to bed for 9 30pm.so I am rested

 

Day 43 - don't know why but the last few days urges were extremely strong, it's like my brain is trying to tell me that there's an old easy way for everything. I have already typed in the first terms on the internet, fortunately I switched off immediately with the first picture and this on three consecutive days! What kept me from going further this time? 1x my streak and 2x that I do not want to lie or lose my progress here in the forum. So once again, thanks for this community! Hope the next days gettin better again

 

I'm feeling tired and about to relapse

 

Day 6
Its been long since I have this much grip over my urges

 

I relapsed. I feel extremely bad. It was stupid and unnecessary. My brain managed it again to trick me again. At first I only watched "harmless pictures", then they got more and more intense and at some point I ended up with videos again. Rational thinking switched off. 43 days without PMO were much better and happier than now. I had such a good streak...and now I am starting from scratch again. I'm trying to take the anger with me and put it into the new start. I reached 43 days, so I can do that again now and this time I will achieve the 90 days and more!

Never give in guys, believe me, it isn't worth it at all! You will get a lot of benefits if you stay away from this addiction. I already noticed many changes. Stay strong! You can do it!

Unfortunately, the last days I let my defense down somehow. I thought I can't relapse anymore with this streak. I will do it differently this time and create my own post in which I will update daily, something like a diary. Hopefully this will increase my awareness. This time I just have to make it.

 

Day 6 over with some urges and got distracted with some pics but avoided that

 

I relapsed three times in this week. I feel so bad. I can't beat this addiction. I don't know what to do. I'm going to cry.

 

This post is amazing. I can do it!!
https://yourbrainrebalanced.com/for...ughts-on-rebooting-extremely-long-post.15558/

 

2 weeks in. While studying for finals I came across this passage about Erik Erikson's stages of psychosocial development:

"Young adults must achieve intimacy vs. isolation" Young adults being 20-35 year olds, probably the most addicted age group. The quote stopped me in my tracks when I read it. The more you isolate and do you know what, the further you push away intimacy with a real person. Be well everyone

 

You can do it!

 

At day 2

 

I'm committing.

Im committing starting now. It is 12:26 AM where I am at. I don't do well with setting a goal for no PMO, but I am going to try now. Goal: 7 days

Here goes nothing.

I'll check back in tomorrow.